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2008-08-29T11:06:00.000-07:00

OH! Its been real long since my last post! haha..
Had been emo-ing last few months. But guess the emo-ing process is over~!
^.^
Exams over! Just have my holiday since last week.
Oh well. Got to work for M-O-N-E-Y!! Money money.
Money means everything.
Alright, gotta spend time with friends too! =)

What's life..?
Kept asking myself recently. If life's all about money, then i guess it's quite dull.
Why live life den?
It could be better off if I'm dead, at least i'll get those paper money with lots of "0s"! lols..

It struck me when i saw an old couple holding hands walking across the road.
Perhaps life's all about finding the right partner?
Well.. Tat's practically what i'm living for and moving on now.
To find my partner! My the other half.. =]

My motivation.

Life..?

2008-06-09T18:35:00.000-07:00

Life is'nt great anymore..
meaningless..?
empty?
lonely..
i dont wanna hear anything!
But i dont wanna be alone..
happy belated birthday to me..

dusty!

2008-05-15T04:59:00.000-07:00

wow.. its dusty here.. time for a new look..
shall go search for new blogskin..
hmm.. alot has happened..
My philosophy: Never leave regrets in life..
Tats wad i always tin we live for..
haha..
I guess i did it..
No regrets.

Ytd work, first time felt ck's care..
Knew he is already exhausted, but still, he offers to play dota..
Hey bro, thanks! =]
I can feel it..
But i noe sam don lyk u keep on stay out at night too, so don quarrel cuz of me ar!
=x
Was already broke since school reopen,
But these few weeks work n work, Slowly regaining my balance financially..
yea, u're right, i work n work, abit neglected my studies..
Afterall, studies more important right?? haha..
But still, no money to survive where will have future? =x
ARGH!!!
Don se de to buy contact lens..
30bucks!
OMG..
this one im wearing now is lyk been for a month plus reaching two..
lol.. If one day im blind, i guess all of u will noe why..
Hey guys, a few big days are coming reeeaaal SOOON..!
wahahahahahaha..
Looking forward to it..
But wads next after all these..
Can only be silently.. alone..

Lonely..

2008-03-29T08:00:00.000-07:00

Feeling so lonely again. Upon knowing all my bros going in army, this feeling of solitude envelops my whole heart. Got this thought of joining army together with them. But im afraid i'll lose interest in studying after completing my national service.

"You better go find another group of frens la, our side no hope liao!"

All the more i feel lonely after hearing one of them saying this..

Now, even when they are still outside, im alrdy feeling so so so alone. After they go in, im really afraid i cant look up to anyone when i needed someone there for me.

All of the sudden, i feel so afraid of scool reopening. Im afraid, i wont have time for those impt ppl in my life. Im afraid, they will leave me cuz we've got lesser time tgt.

Do i really have to learn to let go in this life?? Learn to be independent??
Who can i look forward to?

Bitter.

2008-03-09T05:05:00.000-07:00

S.I.A.N.!
Really wonder how life can be so boring lyk mine now..
Sad.. Haiz..
I wanna work..
But i don lyk sales line..
=( But Joanne told us tat Topshop hiring ppl..
Shall i go for it??
At Wisma though.. hmm..
The pay's okok la..
But it'll mean my days at home are numbered if i were to be hired..
AHhhhh!!
Hate making decisions lyk these..

2008-03-07T17:57:00.000-08:00

Things in life arent easy yea?
Going through all alone is tough..
So God made us frens, perhaps?
To ensure us tat loneliness wont pester us any longer when we felt it..

But sometimes loneliness still seem to follow us anywher, everywher.
Its the feelings inside,
I should describe it as "emptiness".
I do feel empty from time to time..
I guess everyone does?
Even when we've everything, things we want so much, it still does follow us..

Sometimes, just wish tat someone who truly knows me might appear.
So tat he/she can really understand me..
But i'd become so "predictable" while facing tat person, isnt it?
Its not something good too, rite?

Life is contradicting! =)
Shall update again soon.

hey hey!

2008-02-28T20:51:00.000-08:00

Power la!
Feel so energetic ytd when i oli hav had 2 curry-puffs for the straight whole day..
First time..
xD
Was so damn hungry, but was working..
So all i could eat was tat "delicacy" in tat coffee shop..
When i found out i really muz get food, it was alrdy 3am plus.
Hmm..
I can go on diet too eh??
=]
It sure is tough..

2008-02-25T07:57:00.000-08:00

I trust ur love for me.
I trust u're not leaving me tat easily.
But i really cant do anything when u juz keep silence lyk tis.
Tis burning sensation..
I've long forgotten wad it feels lyk.

After effects..

2008-02-24T03:18:00.000-08:00

Wa...
Damn tat sparring session.. lol..
Aching everywher..
Especially both my feet.. Blisters everywher..
These two days stayed at home..
Couldnt go anywher wif my feet lyk tis.. Limping..
lol.. And my hand.. Finally stopped bleeding today..
Simply walking feel so difficult for me now..
Haha.. Long tym once lyk tis oso good..
Can help remind me wads physical pain lyk, rather dan getting blinded by emotional sufferings..
xD
Gotta start trainin myself physically le..
If really cant get into poly, den will hav to go army..
But still, will do my best for everything, even if it means serving NS.. ^.^
My dreams? I dont know.. I just want to acheive something in my life..

Movie!!

2008-02-22T14:57:00.000-08:00

Finally went out and watched movie wif bros..
"L" Changes The World.
Quite nice though i'd much prefer DeathNote 1 & 2..
Had a pleasant NIGHT hanging out wif them..
But was back home wif injuries and wounds.
Got screened by two policemen, cuz the neighbourhood complined us for being too "active" during the night..
But i guess we were really noisy.. Did we wake her up from her slp?
Cuz we were chit chatting and fighting..
So long din move my legs and body, abit sore though..
But still, was able to fight well.. Something to be glad abt for the night i guess?
Juz glad, all of u were there..
Thank you..

troubled..

2008-02-14T10:03:00.000-08:00

WHY ARE THINGS TIS WAY?

Im really down now. No one in my list seem lyk i can confide to.
So many things on mind, and today, juz got another bad news.
My parents told me my grandma was diagnosed with cancer.

Why? Why?!
So many things come tgt at once. What should i do?

I felt lyk crying, but my eyes were dry. Specialists said she hav less than a year's time.
Why do ppl die?
Why do we live..?

I dont know wad will happen to us if my grandma's gone.
Shes becoming thinner n thinner.
Cuz tat darn thing is in her stomach.
Making her no appetite every single meal.

She doesnt know abt herself having tis illness yet.
I wish she'd live to see my marriage...

记得你，记得爱...

2008-02-05T10:24:00.000-08:00

我还爱着一个人　但愿回到美好的从前
Oh Yeah
也许痛的感觉　证明了爱的深浅
不然为什么我还不撤退　Woo-Ho~
记得爱　所有幸福的片段
所以才一直忘记要离开
伸出手　继续勇敢付出我的爱
原地不动的等待
就算风把我的头发吹乱
记得爱是我给过的答案
就不再　考虑应该不应该
一滴泪　落进无边无际的大海
至少我们都活得没有遗憾

Regrets..

2008-02-03T22:10:00.000-08:00

I regretted ever doing tat in front of her!
I really regretted..
If its possible to go back in time, if i ever noe i'm going to love her so from the start, I'd never have started smoking..
Y did i smoke in front of her in the first place?
I wasnt really sure..
Because of tis action,
it rendered me speechless,
leaving only empty promises behind!
Im a guy who honor my words..
Tats the way i was being brought up.
Im really ashamed for wad i've done tis time..
Ashamed to tears, even.
I have, not only broke my way of being a guy, but broke her heart as well..
The feelings inside is really unbearable.
Why did i ever did it??
I really hate myself.. Im sorry..
Im a guy who honor my words.
I'll quit. Tis i promise u. take care.

Why?

2008-01-17T10:07:00.000-08:00

Everything has a reason.
But wad is the reason for couples to be able to find each other in billions of people in the World?
Destiny? Fate? Unexplainable..

No. 100 post!

2008-01-14T10:45:00.000-08:00

Hey pals! Guess wad? tis is my 100th post since i started blogging.. lol!
But i guess not many will check on me ba.. =x
So long nv update, they might have tot my blog was dead long ago.. Zzz..

Ok, now, to update..
I've "found" a job!
Macdonalds delivery Assistant.. haha..
Was such an easy task, n very very SLACK-ABLE.. lol..
So i got myself a psp slim!
363bucks.. OMG.. The first thing in tis new year 08 tat i bought!

Haiz.. but quite saded, due to the fact tat i've gotten much lesser time wif my frens n all..
Haiz.. Very depressing actualy..
But money more important now.. Cuz CNY coming! haha..

Noe wad? Though Mac delivery is a very slack job, we still need to be physically fit!
lol.. Cuz ther was once, i had to deliver to a condo in Upper Serangoon area..
It was on the 10th floor, den juz as i reach tat particular lift, i saw tat big big sign board,
"Lift Under maintenance".. Zzz..

And i climbed all the way to the 10th floor wif the stupid "out-field" like bag for the ns men..
Its damn heavy la..
Den when i reach the 9th storey, I found out tat they don link to the apartment im looking for at the 10th!
I cursed n swear..!
lol.. In the end i had to call the customer in order to find his apratment..
But luckily he gave me 2bucks tips..!
lol.. Its pathetic, i noe..

Even the ns men in the Paya lebar airbase said the macdonalds delivery bag was somewhat like their out-field bag pack.. wth..

Haiz.. Juz feeling low these few days..
Got my ns medical check-up letter le..
And i don even noe whens my DAE period starting from..
If i missed it, i will hav to serve ns first le.. Zzz..

Sianz! But luckily got my psp slim accompany me now.. hehe..
Like my wife liao.. xD
Alrite, shall post again soon..
PLEASE ANYONE, REVIVE MY TAGBOARD!!!! rofl..
Sometimes, i just envy them..

2007-12-21T09:48:00.000-08:00

WOOOO!!! haha.. 21st dec, destination: Orchard.
So long nv went out wif bros le..! haha.. though its only the three of us, was fun huh?
hehe.. nth special, talk cock, sing song play majong! lol..
No majong actually. Tot it sounds better.. ;P
Awww..!
Watched "National Treasure" wif leb, ck n xinyi..!
Nice.. Worth watching!
Both the duration and story-plot..!
One less choice of present to buy for her!!
Sad.
Money running low.. hahas..
But earn le jiu shi yao spend ma...! =P
Hmm.. Most probably working the sales line again.
Selling 'Perfume'!!
hahas..
Scratching my head le.. sianz..
Everything's going juz fine for me now..
Hope it stays lyk it is..
Cuz im loving it! xD
Hopefully, i'll buy the rite thing, for her.. ;)
High-time i find a long-term job n stick to it..
hehe.. alrite.
Shall update u guys again..!

New.

2007-12-18T22:05:00.000-08:00

Hey..! Finally, i've given tis blog a new look!
It been so long since i last posted, updated about my stuff.
My "love-life" isn't any better..
Ok. Everything's fine, except, i've got a job, n i've lost the job.
haha..
The job was about packaging modems n stuff. Sweet n Easy.
$50/day, office hour 9-6, monday to friday.
I've managed to work for a week! And tat's $250 into my pocket.
However, after tat week, we couldnt continue the job. Cuz the boss tot tat we only wanted to work for a week, so she found others to replace us for the coming weeks.
Both of us are struggling, and it seems lyk hope has abandoned me. Im left wif nth.
Sad to say, after tis job, i don feel lyk working any others.. Zzzz..
Its only been 5 days since i last worked, but my money is "running low", already.
Stil need to do lots of stuff whic need money.
Cut my hair, Change my hp, go out for gatherings.
And wads worst, CHRISTMAS is drawing near. Zzzz..
How i wish, i was borned wif a silver spoon in my mouth. haiz.
Alrite, tats quite about it for my work-life.
it's complicated, tat's the way it is.
Social-life. Nothing much recently, about 2 weeks before, i stayed at home for straight 8 days.
And now? Its another 3 days at home. I should describe it as, NO-LIFE.
Some times, too lazy to go out.
Some times, nobody to go out wif.
Im devastated, its time i learn to put on fake fronts.
Bored! I hate life.

2007-12-07T08:10:00.000-08:00

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wait for you.

2007-11-22T16:15:00.000-08:00

I never felt nothing in the world like this before

Now I’m missing you and I’m wishing you would come back through my door

Why did you have to go?

You could have let me know; so now I’m all alone

Girl you could have stayed but you wouldn’t give me a chance

With you not around it’s a little bit more than I can stand

And all my tears they keep runnin’ down my face

Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide

Are you that afraid of me?

But I know it’s a lie what you keep inside

This is not how you want it to be

So baby I will wait for you

Cause I don’t know what else I can do

Don’t tell me I ran out of time

If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you

If you think I'm fine it just ain’t true

I really need you in my life

No matter what I have to do

I’ll wait for you

Been a long time since you called me

(How could you forget about me)

You gotta be feeling crazy

How can you walk away

(When) Everything stays the same

I just can’t do it baby

What will it take to make you come back

Girl I told you what it is and it just ain’t like that

Why can’t you look at me?

You’re still in love with me

Don’t leave me crying

Baby why can’t we just just start over again

Get it back to the way it was

If you give me a chance I can love you right

But you’re telling me it won’t be enough

So baby I will wait for you

Cause I don’t know what else I can do

Don’t tell me I ran out of time

If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you

If you think I'm fine it just ain’t true

I really need you in my life

No matter what I have to do

I’ll wait for you

So why does your pride make you run and hide

Are you that afraid of me?

But I know it’s a lie what you’re keeping inside

That is not how you want it to be

Baby I will wait for you

If it’s the last thing I do

Baby I will wait for you

If you think I'm fine it just ain’t true

I really need you in my life

No matter what I have to do

I’ll wait for you

I’ll be waiting …

me.

2007-11-22T15:46:00.000-08:00

Ahhhh!! I feel lyk crying for a second time tis year..
Things aren't the way I wan it to be!
But tat's life, i guess..
I HATE LIFE!

For You.

2007-11-22T15:26:00.000-08:00

I know you've made your decision. Leaving seems inevitable. I couldn't come up with any other better ways to help you except to stop myself from contacting you, in order for you to feel less painful. I don't know how long it'll take for you to get out of the pit. But that's the least I could do. Forgive me for all the unhappiness that I've brought upon you. For this is the second time we part.

Really gone.. Really gone.. I know you mean it. You meant to say there'll be no third time. And you're not coming back to me anymore. But gal, no matter what others say, I'll wait for you..

Take care..

Hope you'll find your happiness soon. And be sure not to put on a fake front the next time we meet! Love you.

The battle

2007-11-17T07:44:00.000-08:00

Whenever the guy's with her, he'd feel utmost happiness..

But when he's alone, alone for too long..

Saddness would come and try to consume him.

He fought against it.

Once in awhile, he won.

But many a time, he lost, totally defeated..

And many times, she came and held him up.

The guy started wondering why couldnt he be stronger..?

And finally, he found the answer..

It was because, it was her..

This time, as usual, the guy lost..

And all he knew was for her to held him up, again..

But she never turn up.

He tot for awhile, and he knew,

he is selfish..

All he knew was the sadness in him..

For a change, he decided..

To stand strong even after being defeated..

It'll be difficult..

But at least, it was all tat he could do,

To gif her less trouble,

and more happiness..

to be continued...

How should i say?

2007-11-15T10:20:00.000-08:00

Tml ck birthday le!! haha..

Finally got event liao..

Life's lyk so boring nowadays.. haiz..

hehe.. So bored, so went on to dye my hair!

Let shawn dye for me.. Not bad though..

Anw.. Today went to town..

To look for ck b'dae present!

Den went to recruit express first..

hehe.. Filled up the forms and all..

Hope will get a job reeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaal soon..

Ck's present was a headache!

Couldnt hav enough time to look for it,

Besides, all of us were broke.. T.T

Went to far east, den saw one very handsome guy in one of the shops.. woo..

Find him very attractive though.. But he's too short..

TOO BAD.. haha..

So gals out ther don ask me wher to find him k..

Finally found a simple shirt for him!

SoooOO sorry bro!

Now all of us too broke le.. so if possible, don hiam k.. haha..

ANW GUYS..!

Im starting to cut down on my SMOKING..

hehe.. manage to cut down i should say..

Hope slowly slowly can quit ba!

Tml.. though is ck b'dae.. I still got to work!

Oh gosh.. haiz..

Tried to push away le..

But alrdy push tis job away 3 times liao..

N is my dad's fren offer de...

So muz go work le ba..

But my dad told me the pay quite high..

Hope so.. Hmm...

Den will hav money to go kbox wif them after tat!!!

haha..

everything seem fine.. but im not..!

I dont know if "time" is the culprit..

But "time" is wad u needed..

im losing my way..

Will u reach out to me?

彩虹

2007-11-12T05:02:00.000-08:00

哪里有彩虹告诉我
能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静
所有的云都跑到我这里

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

看不见你的笑
要我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳开始环绕环绕
没有理由我也能自己走掉
是我说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

Night!

2007-11-04T08:18:00.000-08:00

Nowadays keep on raining!!
Dunno was it cuz of this, last night, while walking alone, found the sky full of STARS!
Dim ones, Bright ones..
SOOOOooooOOO beautiful...!
And the cresent seem so bright too!
Such a nice scene.. Dont thk can see it in S'pore often..
Lots of things came to my mind..
But all i wanted was to juz stand there & look at the stars, shining..
Got to blame my hp! Or rather myself...
Cuz my hp LOUSY.. So couldnt take pic of it.. haiz!

It came clear to me..

mia

2007-10-25T15:48:00.000-07:00

hahas.. MIA for two whole days! Slpt for more than enough le.. ZZZ.. =x
Finally freed myself from school! ^.^ Can hav brk for awhile..
Others all having their Os now..
Guess im tired too..
Juz wanna leave everything after Os!
So everybody! Kampateh!!!!
Hehe.. Will b slacking till November le ba..
In the mean time, juz wanna help ppl wif their Os..!
Broz, frens, All! ^-^
Hope all of u out there, after completing Os can come out feeling FREED! XD
Shall start wif helping my bros first.. Lets all jiayou!

Those having their papers tml, might not b able to see..
But, all of u better gif it ur all! jys jys jys!!! =]
Shall pray for u..
Hehe.. work hard, work smart..

Turning Point of my life..?

2007-10-17T16:17:00.000-07:00

School has started merely one week! And now i have a decision i've got to make.. A decision so big, it will affect my future, my life.. Im so afraid to face it.. But i know, i've got to settle it, once and for all..
Interest, or prospect? I remember asking myself tis question 8 months ago while i was choosing my course.. Pertaining to the naive mindset, i tot business courses was better.. I guess most of the ppl out there tot so too before they enter the poly realm.. I gave up my interest and went for the 'sound so cool' course, Banking & Financial Services (BFS).. Being a Banker, great prospect eh? However, it isnt so true for everybody, at least it isnt true for me..
Now tat a semester has passed, i see tat it was a mistake having chosen BFS as my course..
I use to have tis firm belief tat one taking the path of one's interest will eventually be successful in their future.. Now i regret having not following tis belief.. I should have enter an engineering course instead! Afterall, maths is my forte! Why the hell did i study A-Maths for the 3 years in my secondary school when i ended up in a course not even having a Maths module?
It turn out tat business courses were mostly theory-based! The ones tat i hate most.. Why did i contradict myself..?
Now, i feel tat my life is a mess.. wif future so gloomy..
I guess i should change course..? But changing will take away another year of my life.. Wad should i do..?
Shall i follow my belief again? Or shall i continue walking down the gloomy future..? I dont know....! i just feel tat, im all alone..

Brand New Day!

2007-10-14T16:36:00.000-07:00

Blogging in the morning! Why?? Shouldnt i be in school now...??
Hehe.. Don misunderstood me ah! I din pon k.. Cuz tis week first week..
So ALL tutorials no needa go! WOO!!! hehe.. At least thers still something left for me to feel happy abt.. =P
Haiz.. Damn stupid! My scool website de student login dunno y cant login de!
So i dunno wad time is my lecture lor.. Damn! Lyk tat how not to late sia..? Sianz..
Oso dunno how le.. So sway la.. Ytd keep trying still cant.. even now..! Dunno the website for fark!
Sianz..
Brand new day.. a brand new start..! But everything's lyk so messy now..
My laptop.. Den now my time-table.. Dunno wads next sia..
Hmm.. But promise myself to do my best tis sem! Will not gif up so easily.. ^.^
Ytd got the chance to talk to my SUPER SENIOR last tym studying in NP... Now in local Uni..
Same course somemore, BFS.. hehe.. Somehow his words got me motivated..
Den plus i got YOU as my motivator! No scared no scared le.. Hehe..
Alrite! Bstats will be my first lecture if im not wrong! Shall push myself hard tis tym round.. =]
I will be back...! =P

Alone

2007-10-13T00:25:00.000-07:00

Im so afraid.. Scool's reopening.. And loneliness tag along it too..
When scool reopens, tats when i'd be left alone.. For good? =(
Loneliness can definitely make someone cry hard.. Unbearable for some..
Dunno why! Just couldnt get through tis on my mind.. it feels much lyk im alone in my life..
I guess.. All i need is motivation... Something to keep me going.. Dragging myself even further..
im tired.. being alone! falling..

2007-10-10T17:24:00.000-07:00

SO SWAY tis few days.. OMG..!
Drop 16 bucks after work tat day..
Den next day found my laptop spoil le..
Wads next??
I lost my contact lens container!!
Den??
I use a small plate to contain my lens..
Next moring, guess wad?
The moment i put on the lens on my left eye, i felt SOOOO SPICY...!
U're right..
The plate was used to put chilli the day before.... =x WTF...!
Den my reflex was to shut my eyes real tight..
The spice was almost unbearable la..!
Haiz..
Den few minutes lata, open my eyes..
My vision still blurry de..
Was thking where was my lens!
Look for it up everywher!
But couldnt find it though..
Den felt discomfort under my left eyelid..
And i tot, "could it be the lens went up??"
OMG..!

Damn shitty la!!!!!..
So damn irritated..!
WTH..
Den went to see doc..
Noe it cost me how much??
FYI. $76.05...
Haiz..
Got to fan bout financial, heallth and studies..
relationship..?
Its up to you now..
I wish i could tell u how i feel..
And u can maturely listen to it..

Don get me wrong!
Din mean tat u're immature k! =x
Haiz..
Damn sway la..
Last week holiday somemore..
=(
Sadded..

2007-10-09T11:30:00.000-07:00

I don really know wads got into me..
Just tis few days..
Got all emoed..
Even today..

Except the day while im working..
Mayb was bcuz she was ther..
Tiring.. But din really mind much..
Cuz could get to see her..

EMO EMO EMO..
Why should i spend my last week of holiday emo-ing..?
hmm..
But i cant find a reason for me to stay happy either..

haiz..
Den now..
My bloody laptop dunno y coouldnt start up!!!

Farking hell..
Haiz..
Nothing seems to be right for me..
Damn..

2007-10-04T10:14:00.000-07:00

My heart went all out when looking at wad u've said..
Wads it tat u're facing, alone..?
Gal, u're simply having too much troubles on mind..
All i can help..
Is not to cause u any trouble..
Don bear everything urself!
Even if the one u're sharing wif weasnt me..
It doesnt matter anymore..
Juz wan to see u smile, and stay happy everyday..
I felt the same way when i got back my results..
And u rmb wad u told me..?
Tell tat to urself..
Take tis as a disappointment tat can encourage u to work, even harder..!
=) Things don always turn out to be exactly wad u've expected..
Tis is life.. Do learn to be strong..

I really have lots i feel lyk telling u..
But its ok if u doesnt feel lyk listening to it..
Cuz theres always a "next tym", rite??
Im trying my best now..
So gal, u too, try ur best not to fall..
IF theres a need to, i can leave u to cool down for tis period..
Until u confidently walk out of the exam hall..
Wif a smile, tat is..
=) I'll always be there..
Being tat silly me..

U might feel reluctant of me now..
But all u hav to do is just tell me..
And u can be alone for tis period of time..
When everything's settled, den come bac to tis stupid pig here.. yea..?
Pls, do stay strong..
Take care..

2007-10-03T20:20:00.000-07:00

I guess i noe wad im wrong about tis time..
I jumped to conclusion??
Im sorry gal..
Sorry..
I tried my best not to be so negative le..
But..
How..?
Teach me!
=(

城外

2007-10-03T19:06:00.000-07:00

你的愛情像是一座堡垒

好多士兵在防衛

這样的和平太狼狈

难道你不觉得累

城外面我就快要崩溃

城裡你不了解

狂风中飘着我的眼泪

你有没有感觉

我的伤口早已经无所谓

醒了依然继续追

前线上绝对不撤退

儘管寂寞太漆黑

城外面我被重重包围

会不会闭上眼

戰火力裡我没有了知觉

也忘了你是谁

蔡旻佑

我想要説

2007-10-02T13:20:00.000-07:00

看着右手被撕裂的傷口

爱好像曾經停留

而我左手按下號碼之後

那首屬於我的歌不在播送

默冩你的愛過坦承自己脆弱

对白怎麼説表情才不難過

我想要説我想要説

如果没有了你我該如何往下走

那一秒鐘有没有發現我倔強裡的問候

怎麼勸我放手在這一切之後

蔡旻佑

你愿意吗？

2007-09-29T16:34:00.000-07:00

忘了是从谁的口中听见，在我们人生的道路上，往往会遇见很相似的三胞胎。

先是“失去”。

然后是“遗憾”。

最后才到“珍惜”。

我不想等到失去你，更不想等到我们之间变成遗憾，才学会去珍惜。

所以，我好想好想改变这次序。但却久久没机会去实现这愿望。

因为，机会是你给的。

你愿意给我这个机会，让我跳跃认识“失去”和“遗憾”的过程，直接能够“珍惜”你吗？

机会，是你给的...

我会一直等下去...

不要覺得我烦哦！因为，这只是刚刚开始而以！=P

Happy Birthdays to all three of you! =)

2007-09-27T09:12:00.000-07:00

Celebrating Jetaime & Jiayi's birthday today at east coast! The up-coming event at 12am is Kelvin Thong's Birthday!! haha.. Is lyk so long never celebrate ppl's birthday le lor!.. My god.. So finally can meet up wif them.. Abit happy, abit sianz.. Cuz among the five of us, oli me alone there.. Den most of the time din talk de... Just listen to them do the talkingS.. hmmm...

At first still thk tat i'd have to go there alone.. Luckily later on got to find another slow poke! haha.. We decided to meet up by boarding the 76 shes on.. So i ask her to go out at 8pm to the bus-stop.. But guess wad? I recieve her msg telling me shes alrdy out by 7.50pm la.. OMG..! All of u out there should noe how slow i am.. lol.. So these 10minutes are actually very very precious to me.. Den i was lyk rushing here and there.. Cuz got 10minutes slower liao.. But was actually my fault la.. Cuz din fully utilize the one hour i had to prepare.. Was slacking down there.. =P haha..

Took a cab to the bus-stop feeling so proud for the first time.. =x Tot i reach there on time..
Den guess wad? I was at the wrong bus-stop!! Fark-shit la.. Den heihei called me, ask me whether 76 got turn right after going straight until serangoon anot.. Den i stunt there for awhile.. JIALAT! At wrong bus-stop! OMG..! haha.. So stupid la.. Was feeling so proud and happy, den suddenly found myself so stupid down there.. Wasted cab fare some more.. =x haha..

Den quickly jog to the other bus-stop further down.. Already missed her bus le.. So ask her to alight first.. haha.. So sorry heihei! Got to let u wait alone there.. Was dark down there hor? psps.. =x

Reach there, den chat wif them awhile.. Wasnt very crowded at east coast today though.. Almost oli our ppl there.. haha..

The cool breeze reminds me of some things in the past.. We have had great memories.. All of us.. Unwilling to let go of it.. Some might even hope we could go back in time.. But its alrite..! Its not lyk we din cherish the time tgt during secondary scool! haha.. Just tat we wont get to meet up eveyday to study tgt, to have recess tgt, and to go out tgt often..

Time; really changes lots of stuffs..

Today officially reconcile wif Jetaime le!! =) Got to chat wif her.. Hmmm.. Somehow i noe u care for me.. But just so u noe.. I acknowledge wad u've told me.. But i din accept all.. =) Thanks taime! Really appreciate ur care and concern.. Lyk in the moring sent me home while i still gong gong dai dai lyk tat.. hmm.. Thanks.. =) I will try not to sacrifice my studies due to some things.. No worries k? U too.. Work hard in SIM, fall down le, get up on ur feet again k? Jiayous! =)

Drank hard liquor to help kelvin thong celebrate.. haha.. Was soooOOO expensive la.. $15 for less than half of the transparent plastic cup.. wth.. haha.. But tat was already enough to make me blush.. I guess they were rite too.. My complexion really getting worse off.. omg.. haiz.. Dunno how to help myself oso.. wu nai wu nai... haiz..

Holidays gonna end soon le.. Hmm.. Rmb i said? After my holidays, i'd strive for the best in my studies? I hope, i'd leave no regrets..

2007-09-23T13:11:00.000-07:00

Brand new day! haha.. Went out to central today.. For our "pool session" commencing at 8pm! =P First time so early reach though.. So i went to my "future work place" to tiao awhile to wait for them.. YES, u din get it wrong, its WAIT FOR THEM! =P Den got to see ck.. SoooOO busy today la.. He couldnt even really stand there and talk to me for long.. haha.. Start working next tues! Heard will be quite busy tat day.. Cuz got somebody "book" tat day at the steamboat.. To reserve for abt 40 or 60 ppl..? haha.. Found it quite funny though.. To book steamboat.. haha.. Dunno can cope anot la.. Seem easy, but when im doing it, dunno how it'll turn out! =P Hope everything will turn out just fine.. haha.. Wore whole body white today! Never tried before.. So tried wearing.. I tot it was ok though.. Dunno how others thk la.. haha.. Heard tat Lea flying tml le!! Hmm.. Have had pleasant and unpleasant times wif her too.. But still, after shes gone, dunno will have a next tym we'll get to see her anot le.. All the best for her bah! =) Played pool wif boon! Lost.. 5/4 haha.. Last game should be win de lor.. But i k-pah-lan go hit the ball so hard.. Den went into another pod.. haha.. Stupid la.. Paid $6.80 for tat game.. So ex! =x Den after tat sent mei home tgt wif hao.. She starting school tml le.. So sad.. Start school so early.. haha.. But nvm! Don sian k? Need someone can come find kor de.. =) Will accompany u if i have the time.. haha.. Everything seem to have settled down for me.. Left wif my school work! Promised myself will really work hard next sem.. And i hope i really will.. =) Don wanna disappoint myself ever again.. Everybody work hard too yea?? ^_^ Not at home now though..! Tell you all.. lol.. Im at caleb's hse! When his gf is here too... =( really become gooseberry le..! *Happy?* haha.. So weird la.. Both of them slpin.. And im blogging.. Don ever come scold me gooseberry ah! I noe im one k.. haha.. Tml should be no event le.. So sad.. Have to stay at home one whole day! *If only i could meet her..* haha..

One, you're like a dream come true

Two, just wanna be with you

Three, girl it's plain to see

That you're the only one for me

Four, repeat steps one through three

Five, make you fall in love with me

If ever i believe my work is done

Then i start back at one... ^-^

Nites!

Shall i say "sweet"?? =/

2007-09-22T11:09:00.000-07:00

NO MOOD TO BLOG!!

*Will be waiting for ur answer! =) Thanks gal.. There might be another time i'll be asking.. It shall be more formal than this..! =P*

Loveya..

$$$

2007-09-21T10:28:00.000-07:00

wa... Spent so much these two days!
$200.. omg.. juz gone lyk tat..
haha.. But at least bought some things i lyk.. ^^

Nothing much today.. Went to cityhall meet long, mei & beeeng..
Den after tat went penisular shop shop.. But i bought nothing there..!
Haha.. After tat went to far east.. Den at FleshImp bought my cardigan! hahaha..
Finally got one.. But black de.. I preferred white though.. hmm..
But its ok.. Black easy to go wif shirts anw.. =)

Tml.. Sat le.. At first promise long n leb to go Double O de..
Den got work from 5pm till night.. hmm..
So mayb not going le bah..
Paiseh bros..
Got work oso good.. Can replenish $$$.. lol..

Actually din really lyk clubbing.. haha..
Go there for long n leb's sake.. To somehow accompany them..
Even if got anything happen, got one more person, one more pair of hands to help.. =x
No la.. Just wanna accompany them.. haha..

*If you'll just say you dont lyk me going, I can simply dont go..*

Now shall depend to see wad time my work ends tml..
If 12 n after, den shouldnt be going le bah.. =)

*You're not restricting me if you ask me not to go.. Cuz i din really lyk clubing either! =P*

Take care pals! gtg slp..
Hope tml... Can get to.....

A story of a stupid guy! =P

2007-09-20T10:45:00.000-07:00

Holding his hope so high, he didnt care what his pals told him..

The only thing on his mind was, "Im meeting her, Im meeting her.."

Walking so fast, nearly jogging, he tot his priority was to get there asap.

On the other hand, the gal was nearly reluctant to meet him..

He knew it, but he couldnt care-less, all he wanted was to get there in time..

Bluffing his way through, hoping tat somehow, the gal might just wait for him..

The time has never been so slow before, for a moment, every station the train stops seem lyk eternity.

"Alright, finally, two more stops."

He doesnt know why, but he was nervous..

Scanning almost every inch of his reflection on the glass of the door, he wanted to see if there were any "flaws" in his attire..

He tot the situation was more tense dan him taking his 'O's..

Just as he reach his station, his phone rang..

He flipped open his hp, took a glance at it..

It was from tat gal..

From tat moment, he knew he wasnt gonna meet her afterall..

He stopped for awhile, asking himself whether or not to pick up tat call from her..

He picked up.

She sounded lyk she was in a hurry..

".. Hello?"

"Hello??"

".. Ya..?"

"You really dont have to come already. I already reach my bus-stop."

*Ang Mo Kio Station, Ang Mo Kio Station...*

He paused for awhile, thinking whether or not to answer her..

".. orh.."

".. Huh??"

He paused again, feeling reluctant to repeat what he've just said..

"orh.."

"Oh, okay.."

".. Okay.."

"Er.. Okay, bye.."

"..."

And she hung up the call..

Holding his hope so high in the beginning, the impact from the fall was far greater than he has anticipated.

Shattered.. Heart? Perhaps..

He walked out of the train, aimlessly walking back and forth in front of the escalator..

Soon after, a message came along..

The gal sense tat he was acting weird in a way..

"Theres always a next tym rite? No need to rush back de.. lol.."

Upon seeing this msg, he stood there and tot for awhile..

Somehow or the other, he felt tat the gal was actually more matured than himself..

He felt ashamed, and a little childish, for him to have rushed all the way back..

And he felt extremely stupid to have done so..

But some tots flashed through his mind..

"Wasnt this the "next tym" the last tym u mentioned?"

However, it wasnt of so much importance..

He was more afraid tat the gal might feel pressured..

And he told himself..

"As long as she doesnt feel pressurized, everything's fine wif me.."

With this last tot in mind, he tried to keep himself positive..

The next tym.. The next tym..

Looking forward to the next tym, at the same tym, he didnt dare to put in much hope..

*It takes both party to make effort for each other to meet.. Be it for chats, going out, or for studies, it will eventually be "troublesome" for both persons. Afterall, its how one look at it.. If its for her.. I bet, he wouldnt felt so... I hope the gal doesnt feel pressurized.. =1

Today!

2007-09-20T10:33:00.000-07:00

Morning din go home.. =P Cuz wanted to have breakfast wif her..
But she din check her hp earlier.. haha.. If only i told her last nite! =x
Waited for an hour plus.. Den decided to meet ck first while waiting.. =)
Went to 608.. Den saman came down too! haha.. Tot both of them so gud..
Came down accompany me.. Yuan lai is cuz both of them hungry.. =/
Haha.. But the same la.. Still got accompany dao me.. After awhile, she replied..
But din get to eat wif her.. Cuz she going out.. Hmmm..
Abit shag.. Cuz not enough slp.. Den shock, cuz cigarette left 1 stick nia..
Couldnt recall when did i smoke so much oso.. Haiz.. Abit disappointed in myself too.. =(
I've set myself a time for me to quit.. Until i reach it.. I guess I'll become heavy n heavier..
But still, if i were to reach it, Im sure I'll have motivation to quit! ^^
Went home after tat.. Den went to town wif ck, saman, leb n long.. Wanted to buy cardigan!
In the end spent $100 plus, but din get even 1 cardigan... T.T
Shall go shop again tml.. Going penisular wif long! =) Broz.. Sweet rite? oli we two.. =x
haha.. So sad lor.. so many ppl say my attire look lyk ah beng!
Some even say my face is one.. Haiz.. I don want ah beng! I wan style..
Can anyone help me?? =P

*Looking forward to the next chance i can get to meet up wif you!*

It's you!

2007-09-19T23:02:00.000-07:00

Spar wif caleb last nite! DAMN breathless la.. Was lyk couldnt catch up my breathe.. So xinku! Den my feet blister.. =x Pain sia.. haha.. But it was a good game though, Leb! ^-^ Din go home ytd!! Haha.. Went to boon's hse stay overnite.. So paiseh boon, u din have enough slp.. Lucky today no need go learn driving.. =) Have had a good chat wif him..! Bro! Really lyk ur company!! =P ER.. I mean I lyk all broz company la.. haha.. Chat for quite sometime.. Den get to know some point i din get to see.. ^-^ Thanks.. Will take ur advice de..! All I hope is our bh can last, FOREVER! haha..

I clearly noe wad i wan now..
I wan to share,
Happy times, unhappy times,
wif you..
I wan to see you smile,
see you laugh, and see you cry..
I wan to be the one whose there for you,
when u need someone soooO bad..
My shoulder is meant for you.. ^_^
Study hard!

I love to dream.. ^_^

2007-09-17T14:12:00.000-07:00

There are just too many coincidence in life..
Dreamt of you again last night! I din realise I was in my dreams..
Anw, it was too realistic! For a moment, i tot it did happened..
How i wish i wouldnt wake up!
...
Woke up at 2pm plus..
Msg awhile den went back to slp, again..
Pig rite?? But was really damn tired..
Haha.. Den guess wad?
I dreamt again..
Of a gal.. Couldnt rmb her face though..
It was a simple dream.. But was sooo sweet, i wouldnt want to forget..

Just so you know..

I'd treat tat gal as you! =P

Cuz every sweet moments, i want to have it wif you..

Dream!

2007-09-16T11:54:00.000-07:00

This blogskin has a slight resemblance of my dream with you..
Only difference was there were two persons on the bench,
You & Me.
Will it come true?
Im sure we're not nothing at all, right?

All or nothing at all..

2007-09-16T09:50:00.000-07:00

Im definitely missing you..
Its getting harder & harder to get you off my mind..
Even when I sleep, I seriously hope to dream of you..!
Cuz its the only place, you & I get to be together...
*Its really difficult to stay positive! This feeling sux!... Haiz..
But I shall just try.. Hope to see you real soon gal..
思念是一种病! Really..
Do take care my gal..!

'Cause I want it all

Or nothing at all

There's nowhere left to fall

When you reach the bottom

It's now or never

There are times it seems to me

I'm sharing you with memories

I feel it in my heart

But I don't show it, show it

And then there's times you look at me

I thought I'm all that you can see

Those times I don't believe it right

I know it, know it...

At the end of the day..

2007-09-13T11:59:00.000-07:00

First day of Oktober Fest! So tired..

All of them abandon me...! All went to bar.. Left me alone on the service floor.. =(

Lucky got a bunch of bros accompany, if not sure sian diao.. =)

Felt weird wif some of them though.. Its lyk i talk to them, they don wanna reply.. wth la..

Dunno dao wad sia.. But its ok.. Wont let them spoil my day.. =P

So happy for a moment.. When haidi appoint me as their "leader"..

But wasnt very proud of it though..

Thanks partner! I got it from weiteck le.. =D Weiteck!! Thanks oso.. haha..

Work work work.. Help out here and there.. Still can cope wif it..

Broz.. I guess u're rite.. i smoke more n more heavily le...

But no worries.. I still din get the kick that tell me i cant do it wifout cigarette..!

I can still control.. Just whether i wan anot.. =)

Got to chat wif him.. Hes really nice.. I was still afraid to tell him my troubles before that..

But guess now should b ok le bah? Thanks lots.. really..

Din tot tat u turn out to be the one who stretch out a helping hand.. =)

Told a guy not to woo her.. But thk he ksiao din hear.. Cuz he din reply me..

Don really lyk to do tat.. Cuz it feels lyk restricting her choices.. So mayb there wont b a next tym i'd do tat le bah..

*No worries! I try not to restrict your choices k.. Lyk you've said.. Spread out your choices, den slowly choose.. Lyk tat den wont regret!*

I guess it was quite obvious today.. But din see her sad or wad.. I guess she has got over it alrdy? Din wanna hurt her.. But got to do it.. If not, if she gets in any deeper, it'll only spell doom..

Den about 11 something, Weiteck's fren got send back home.. Couldnt help any of them.. So sorry..! I thk one of them not happy.. =( Got no choice.. They manager.. haiz..

So sad la.. Told most of them should b work until 2am.. In the end so early got send back home! Sian diao.. Majiam gif them false hope lyk tat..

Poor tin la.. Injured herself.. SO careless wan lor.. Den i don dare to go to her..

Only tin i can do was to get her medicine asap.. But there din have.. Den got to wait till when we're out.. Ran as fast as i could to Esso.. But they din sell too.. Haiz.. When come back, she gone le..

Silly tins? Troublesome? I don find it lyk tat.. As long as you're fine, it doesnt matter..

If you still deem it as *silly*, i guess i could only say.. You are the only one i'd be silly for..

Cuz, everything i do, i do it for you..

Sweet talk eh? XD

At the end of the day.. It wasnt so bad to be positive afterall.. =P

Oh ya! My sem1 results out today at 9am! Wish me luck!!! haha..

Take care guys.. Takkaire gal..

No point!

2007-09-12T12:38:00.000-07:00

I guess theres no point putting the words in black anymore.. Almost everyone knows how to see it..
Today was actually an EMO day for me..
Din really get to talk to her.. Though i wanted very much to do it..
Was just able to look at her from afar..
She seem to slim down a little bit.. Not so chubby.. =x
Din noe how i should start a conversation wif her though..

Wanted very much to protect her..
But when i told someone to tell me if anything lyk tat happens again, tat someone said something, something i tot really deep for..
"Wad can you do?"
Yes, i could indeed do nth..
Who am i to her?
Nobody..
I really wont know how i should ans tat barbie if he were to ask tis question after i confront him..
Someone who lyks her?
Someone who wan to protect her?
Or rather, im her boyfren?

I guess the third one would be better if i were to confront him..

Was cleaning the knives then, luckily din do anything stupid..

Nowadays very negative..
Even till now..

I noe u can read the past few postings..

But u did nothing despite the fact tat u noe i needed some sense of security n assurance from u..

Its disappointing.. And it hurts to noe it..

Then, i could only thk of one reason, tat is the love is only one-sided..

While im bathing just now, negative tots came to me again..
Shes actually not afraid of the obstacles ahead..
I guess n i suppose, shes actually afraid of going into relationship wif me..
Cuz i just found out tat problems keep coming out..
At first, she was afraid tat rejecting tis close fren of hers will cause her to lose him..
Alrite, settled..
After tat was she couldnt face her, to tell her..
Then? She was afraid tat getting into relationship wif me will cause her n him to drift apart..

Afterall..

I guess she tot of others' feelings more than mine..
And it clearly states, where i stand in her heart..

Not even above him eh?
Sad though..
But its the fact..

The fact tat problems keep coming up from you, *can you tell me? are you really so afraid to get into relationship wif me? after all tis waiting, it got us nowhere?*

If its problem u are looking for, there can be dozens..
Its only a matter of whether how much u wan to be wif me..

I just figured it out..
You didnt response, despite knowing wads going on wif me..
Does it mean all the stuff i've said was true??

U said feelings din fade..

I guess it din fade..

But the feeling wasnt enough for u to make the decision..?

Guys, thk im high today?
The more "high" i am, the lower i was..

The smiles, not totally fake..
Neither is it totally true..

The negative tots wont stop, so is the hurting..
Unless miracles happen...

2007-09-10T12:48:00.000-07:00

I gave her my assurance..
I got nothing in return..
All i wan is security..
Something that could sharpen up my perseverence..
Juz so i could at least make myself believe it'd be possible that she'd come to me, when everything's settled..
I see her blog..
Everything became much more clearer..

I noe she'd give up on me, for her life-long frenship..
It hurts, knowing the place im in her heart..
Im starting to doubt..
Mayb im only "yi xiang qing yuan" afterall..
Shall i go on?..

To be continued...

Old Sultan House!

2007-09-08T11:10:00.000-07:00

Do u thk i manage to wake up at 0700? Haha.. I woke up at 0845 instead..! Was lyk, "so little slp nia, where got enough?".. So tired now la..

Though i woke up at 0845, i oli got up and wash up myself at 0915! =P

Jiahao, Mei n i was suppose to meet 0930 at yck mrt control station.. But mei couldn't make it(so was i =x), so postponed the meeting time to 1000 instead! And u noe wad?! I manage to reach there at 1005! OMG rite? haha.. Cuz i din wax my hair today! Tot i'd go home after the registration for BTT.. So couldn't care less.. =P

Down there waited for the two of them, both of them reach just about the same time, at 1045 la!! Idiot rite? I was the oli one waiting so "patiently" for the two of them lor!! haha.. So tired some more.. At first i still tot that hao was goner! Cuz i called his hp for so many times, not once he picked up! haha.. But in the end he still made it there to meet us..

After we arrived at SSDC, we got our numbers(698 and 699) and sat down to wait for our turn.. When it "beeped" for 699, i went to the counter, and the first thing i asked was, "we can oli use ic for our first time registration?" Yup, u're half rite, i din have my ic with me.. So, i woke up so early for nothing today! omg.. wth lor.. My ic is wif caleb's beloved galfren.. Actually din notice my ic was gone until giovanna told me~

Saded a little la.. Den tot that the both of them got to go off le.. But they say hungry.. So went on to central kfc to eat..! Saw boon there, on his way to meet his cousins.. He seems happy.. haha.. Was so full after my 2pcs meal la.. couldnt even finish the whole meal.. no appetite nowadays.. Ended up my whole day i oli ate kfc for lunch, the one i din even manage to finish.. =x
Guess im sliming down for sure liao.. =P

Den Hao got this stupid idea of going town, when the both of us was in 3/4 pants, slippers, and a VERY casual t-shirt.. And also, rmb? i din wax my hair! omg.. And i actually went wif him.. Dunno wad i thking.. haha.. Alight at somerset mrt control station.. Den saw long there! Was lyk so suprise man.. haha.. Guess i found someone who's more jialat than me! Late for work lyk hell.. And long say he everytym lyk tat de.. lol.. Called BOON oso..! =x
But our boon a little bit better than tat one la.. At least wont late for work.. haha..

After tat went on to kpool at cine den off we go to Hao's dad's construction site at Holland Rd!! haha.. Shiok man.. WE WALK THERE FROM TOWN...! lol.. Cuz nthing better to do.. Got to sneak into there by a very narrow uphill.. Den my slippers got stuck in the soil and all.. lol.. Quite a different experience! the place is quite near Tanglin Mall.. The whole big piece of land is owned by a Sultan in Malaysia..! Though the place very jungle-lyk la.. But inside still okok..

Den get to see the Old Sultan House! Took pics of it.. Cuz gonna tear-down soon.. So old lor.. Dunno got older than my dad anot.. haha.. After tat sat in Hao's dad's car, hao drove it! WOW! Was lyk, "liscense? A piece of shit man!" lol..

Actually we also wanna try out the crane there de.. But din get to try.. haha.. But nevertheless, still quite a good experience.. =D

Went back to cine again.. Cuz felt lyk playing pool.. haha.. Den after awhile, the both of us emo le.. When we playing billard, a group of guys(paikia) came in and talk to me, ask me whether they can take over the billard table after our game.. Den told him lata after our game we gonna go off le.. If the counter ther say can change ic den change lor.. And we went on wif our game.. Den finally our game ended, the ppl came and just took the cue and hit the billard balls.. A bit du lan liao.. Cuz i dunno if we still need to keep the table.. Luckily nthing happened in the end.. haha..
Felt so bad last night, until i call her.. (Even its so dark at night, u brighten up my day!) =)
Couldnt help but keep on thking.. Why din she wanna tell me her troubles..? Mayb partner's right.. I hope u're right partner, but if she told me... I'd have felt more secured..
I shall wait then..

2007-09-07T14:13:00.001-07:00

I've a feeling today!.. I hope I need not go to school ever again.. Cuz I like the way I live my life now.. haiz.. Slack.. Den no money go work.. Got money come out have fun.. Mayb it'll be different after you come into the picture.. But still, Im willing to t-r-y! It ain't easy, obstacles after obstacles.. I guess my pace was faster.. But I'll slow down and wait for her, even if it meant shes CRAWLING..! =x haha.. It is the day tml.. But I thk I heard she gonna go out wif her frens..? I hope I heard wrongly.. But I guess I couldnt decieve myself afterall.. Shall I ask her for it again tml? Wad if she tells me that shes gonna go out wif her frens..? Or wad if she simply don't reply me? I guess we're not there yet if all of that happens...
Im troubled.. I cant stop thking.. And so is my mouth.. Cant stop breathing in drugssssss... omg.. It isn't a reason for me to do that though, but theres nothing else I can do.. Im afraid, Im afraid n Im too afraid.. I've too much to be afraid of.. Insecurity? This is more than enough.. Now that I've settled some of my things, it seems lyk everything turns out better though.. Problems are meant to be solved.. And I hope shes wif me.. Alrite.. tired le.. Got to go slp.. Tml got to wake up at 7am.. And it is 0537 now!.. omg.. nites..!

2007-09-05T18:35:00.000-07:00

OMG OMG OMG!!!
Overdose on me...
I vomit lyk hell on the way home tis morning!!!
Legs oso nua abit..
Guess i've exceeded my limit?
It's a good sign actually, shows that im still not addicted.. lol..
Shall take extra care not to smoke too much.. =x

BH

2007-09-05T17:28:00.000-07:00

WOW!!
Lots and lots of things to blog today..
GET READY MAN!!
Better dont get tired reading! =P

Ok.. Today finally get my hair cut.. AHHH!!
haha.. At Hair Journal..
Wakao.. The atmosphere there, gao gao lei..
Spent $20 on hair cut there.. And $15 for membership for three years.. =P

Hmmm.. Not very nice la..
But lyk the atmosphere there! VINTAGE sia.. ^^

After that send caleb to yck mrt station.. Cuz he going work..
So good lor.. He gonna work still accompany me go cut hair.. haha.. Thanks bro..

Went to meet ck at his hse..
Den re-style my hair..
Their hair styling sucks though.. =x
Accompany him go central.. Pay his utilities bills..
Was troubled wif brotherhood(bh) stuff though..
So sat outside the post office alone.. Lyk gong kia lyk tat..
Kept thking and thking.. haha..

Den got to chat wif ck awhile.. And get to update a little on our bh on him...
Hmmm.. When it seems lyk we're faltering, we're not afterall..! =)))
Den he went to work le..
After tat met wif hao, den finally bought my contact lens!! $35!!! $5 more than the usual one i bought.. But boian la.. Other shop all close le!!
Wa... Its lyk, I use the old contact lens for 2 months plus lor.. No wonder my degree got worse.. =x
Den mei came.. And we went to kbox..!!
Haha.. 3 hours nia... $26.20 each person! XXXXXXXXXXXXXXD
But quite fun though.. haha..
Sang to the bottom of our hearts..!
And sang one song for her.. But she not there to listen.. haha..

Den sinyee they all called me.. Say wan come kpool find me.. haha..
Thanks!! =)) But we're in kbox.. So din get to meet up..
Haha.. Sent mei home tgt wif hao after tat..
By tat time, we alrdy gonna "tou" liao.. Too shag..!
But guess wad? I din go home.. haha..
Went to meet up wif caleb and chat the whole night..
zzzzzzZZZZZZZ!
But the conversation strengthen my belief..!
We call one another Bros, not for name, not to just show ppl that we're close, but its a "sacred" title for our special bonds.. Bros are for LIFE!
Not forever though.. why??
Forever meant even after death!
Got the difference? haha..

At first, i tot bros are to ACCEPT each others' negative points..

Now, it's renewed! We dont have to accept, we ACKNOWLEDGE!

We acknowledge one another for who we are..

U are my Bro, always my bro..! =))

Im sorry i couldnt get it earlier.. Made u disappointed.. Im sorry bro..

I'll treasure u too!! ^^

But sad to say, one of us has drifted apart..

Rmb??

The times when our suaning was simply un-stoppable?

The times when we shouted, "beat our brother ar?!" and we chased and cornered zhiwei in a dead end and hit him lyk hell??

The times when we were on our way to boon's hse to ton, talking bout the "THUMB" thingy?? =x

The times when we said we were MF f5?

The times when we study tgt...?

No matter wad they say.. Im still clinging on to tat tiny hope, tat one day, u'll b back..
U're the one i gave concession the most..
U're the one i once trusted most..
And u'll be my bro, till our live ends..
It may sound silly..
At least tat's something im sure of it on my part..
Bro.. Love is not all..
U forgot!
U still have us brothers..
Rmb, its not just for show!
Bros help out each other in times of trouble..
Bros share happy times tgt..
And bros, have NOTHING we cant solve with one another!..
If u make the effort..
Other things i settle..
But still.. Count on u..
Once bro, forever brothers...
Rmb this well..

No Promises

2007-09-04T10:13:00.000-07:00

Every time you're near I feel like I'm in heaven, feeling high.
I don't want to let go girl.
I just need you to know girl.
I don't wanna run away,
baby you're the one I need tonight.
No promises.
Baby now I need to hold you tight.
I just wanna die in your arms.
Here tonight.

down

2007-09-04T07:51:00.000-07:00

Im feeling really down now..
Depression i guess?
I dont know why..
But the feeling just came to me lyk tat..
Or mayb i noe why?
Just that i doesnt wan to acknowledge it..

Lyk she said..
The feeling that can't be expressed..
Im feeling it now..
So down..
Felt lyk theres no end to this feeling..

Im falling..
And there just seems to be no one reaching out, trying to hold on to me..

Felt lyk crying..
But no tears though..
Its hard.. To endure it..
Hope tis night will pass quickly..

My feelings?? haha..

2007-09-03T17:31:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i really wonder why is title so important to some people..
But now, i felt it myself and the ans bcame clear to me..

For the first tym i hear it..
I tot it was nothing..
I could easily get over it wif a smile..
But after subsequent times..
There was a kind of awful feeling..
Growing more immense after each time..
All along, i know she doesnt lyk being stressed and pressured..
I was afraid she will feel it that way while being wif me..
So i tried to turn my face away from her sight each time i hear it..
Hoping she didn't got a glimpse of my facial expression..
Cuz i was faking my smile..

But i guess she sensed it??
Cuz she tried to ask me about it..

I know if i were to ans her at tat moment, she'd apologize..

I don't wan you to.. I don't need you to.. Cuz it was never ur fault..
Gif me some time mayb? I'll get over it somehow! =)

And thanks gal.. I was actually shocked when i heard tat u tell him straight..
I see u've grown more courageous, to face a problem rather than the usual avoidance..
I was impressed though..

I know u felt uneasy today..
Im sorry.. Cuz i din tell u bout it..
U were not prepared for it..

Now that u feel sad for something u don't know..
In fact, i guess it's something u does know..
U just doesn't wan to acknowledge it, mayb?
U felt sad for wad happened today, rite?
Im sorry.. Mayb i shouldnt have told him from the start..
Den u wouldn't have to come to a conclusion?
I don't know wad i'm doing..
I don't know if wad i've done was a mistake?
Pls.. Just don't feel sad..

I shall slow tins down if u lyk..
If i had rush u all the time...
Im sorry..

Dreamt..

2007-09-02T14:11:00.000-07:00

Oh ya! lol..
I dreamt bout her ytd..
So sweet! =)
Hope it comes true..
Hope i'll dream bout it again tonite!.. ^^

My hair!

2007-09-02T12:44:00.000-07:00

Wa... Finally finish working today..
So tiring.. Almost fell aslp on the cab.. Luckily the driver ask me which way to go then stopped me from falling aslp..
Haha.. Now my fist not so tight le..
Can go some good good places to cut hair.. ^^
Mayb gonna go tml..
Cuz keep on feeling irritated when looking at myself in the mirror..

So tired.. But cant slp yet...
Got to finish up my mom's homecook dinner.. omg..
Maybe shall go try "the crims" they mentioned now..
Haha..

Stupid me doing stupid things today..
Shouldn't have bought them..
She din even have one for goodness sake.. lol..

Actually wanted to blog this ytd..
But was too tired..
So blogging it today..
Im glad i met him..
At least i noe wad sort of person he is..
I feel that he's true to ppl..
Naturally true.. Its one very good character though..
If there's a chance, we might become very good frens in the future..
At least, he someone i wont really mind losing to..
Cuz he's true..

Shall go check out the on9 game!! =)
Aliyoz..

Silly gal.. Msg till fell aslp..

Rest well.. =)

I love you..

2007-09-01T14:30:00.000-07:00

You made my heart nearly pop out too...^^
I felt much much more happier than that time we reconcile..
It isn't just pure happiness..
It's a feeling truly indescribeable..

Its true..
We wont know our future..
And we can barely understand our present..
Moreover, we cant hold on to our past..
SO, i cant promise you stuff accompanying the word, f-o-r-e-v-e-r!
But theres just one thing i clearly know for sure, my feelings are directed towards you and only you!
And thats the one thing i'll follow..
Until i reach you..

The journey hasn't begun..
It'd just be the beginning after im yours..
The authorised owner of MR WONG WEI KANG.. ^^

Let you and me build more happy, happier, and happiest moments together, willya?

Alright, time to explain now..
I know it's too much of a coincidence..
But it's truly a coincident!!
I did not know that it is his birthday when i chose the date..
It was a test, a test to see if i have the chance to win this gamble..
But it wasn't a test to see which you were to choose!
I only found out ytd that it falls on his birthday..
More details i explain to you personally ya?
Its explainable.. lol..
But now you say it, i guess it'd be a test of that sort afterall.. =P

Its too deep..
Yes, its too deep..
The feeling is too deep..
The memories are too deep..
Your smile lies too deep in my mind too..

i can't and i wont wan to forget..
Everything from beginning until the the end..
Cuz it'd just be, You and Me..

黑色幽默

2007-08-31T13:20:00.000-07:00

歌曲：黑色幽默
歌手：周杰伦专辑：the one

难过是因为闷了很久

是因为想了太多

是心理起了作用

你说苦笑常常陪着你

在一起有点勉强

该不该现在休了我

不想太多我想一定是我

听错弄错搞错

拜托我想是你的脑袋有问题

随便说说

其实我早已经猜透看透不想多说

只是我怕眼泪撑不住

不懂你的黑色幽默

想通却又再考倒我

说散你想很久了吧

我不想拆穿你

当作是你开的玩笑

想通却又再考倒我

说散你想很久了吧

败给你的黑色幽默

我的认真败给黑色幽默

Its not easy..

2007-08-31T11:20:00.000-07:00

A story; my story:

Everything started when we were there. Stressless, simply having no worries of what would happen the next minute or wadsoever. All that we were seeking was fun, happiness that can't be sought in our everyday life here in Singapore. A long lost feeling suddenly strike me, just the same way as it struck her. I was so happy, being able to share those same pieces of memories. At least, that was how I felt. Memories.
Soon after, we've to get back to reality, once again having those stress and troubles intruding our lives. Yes, we were back in Singapore. And that should be the start of her nightmare?
With that feeling, I started contacting her, with the intention to find out how she feels about me. It turned out that we have feelings for one another. But there were simply too many obstacles in front of us, invisible to me. So, coming together wasn't so good a choice for us, according to her.
Time and again, I told myself never to give up changing her mindset. I wanted to tell her, love is blind.
Finally, my persistence gave way to her unwavering logic. I start to worry, when the period being so close with her will end. And I started talking much more lesser in front of her.
I thought of taking a gamble, a gamble which ought to be lost.
Many times when I was sending her home, I buck up my courage to hold her hands. But it'd always turn out that her hands wasn't free. She will always be holding on to her handphone, or folding her arms. There wasn't a chance, until one time, when i teased her and she slaps my back with her right hand. My instinct told me, it's now or never.
"OUCH! 痛lei..!"
"会meh?"
"会啦！人家讲手小打人很痛的.. 给我看你的手!"
She undoubtedly lifted up her right hand, and I tried to pretend observing it, then swiftly hold her right with my left hand.
There was a pause, I think she couldn't comprehend wad I've done so quickly afterall.
Den after a moment, she came to realise that she had been cheated. haha.. She tried to shake it off, but I hold on to her hand, not wanting to let go. I suddenly felt like I was forcing her, and so I let her free. It has become one of my best memories with you... Wad about you? =)
The gamble was still on.
There was a second time, and it was the last time. As usual, I somehow "force" her to let me send her home. However, I didn't want to force her to let me hold her hand this time. I saw her holding her handphone on her left hand. And the opportunity came.
"给我看你的电话!"
"我不要。你给我看你的先啦!"
She pass me her handphone, I tried to pretend by pressing a few buttons on it, now her hand is free.
"我可以牵你的手吗?"
I saw her smile. I was still afraid though, that I might get rejected.
She nodded. My heart was pumping fastest. We walk down the road in the middle of the night, holding hands.
"你的手，只有我可以牵哦..."
She nodded again. The sweet smile on her face is one thing that would be difficult for me to forget. I suppose that was the happiest moments, with you. The happiness was indescribeable. Yet, unforgettable..
I have yet to forget these memories..
Memories you say that was all that you wanted..
I know why.. I understand..
I din know even till now, I've been making your life so miserable.
That's not what I wanted. No.
I don't mind you rejecting me, for bgr thingy or on 090807 for going to his birthday..
As long as you dont feel sad ya.

I will try my best to engrave these memories in my mind. I promise. I love you.

思念是一种病

2007-08-29T22:23:00.000-07:00

歌曲：思念是一种病
歌手：张震岳专辑：ok

当你在穿山越岭的另一边

我在孤独的路上没有尽头

一辈子有多少的来不及

发现已经失去

最重要的东西

恍然大悟早已远去

为何总是在犯错之后

才肯相信错的是自己

他们说这就是人生

试著体会试著忍住眼泪

还是躲不开应该有的情绪

我不会奢求世界停止转动

我知道逃避一点都没有用

只是这段时间里尤其在夜里

还是会想起难忘的事情

我想我的思念是一种病

久久不能痊愈

当你在穿山越岭的另一边

我在孤独的路上没有尽头

时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸

却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息

汲汲营营

忘记身边的人需要爱和关心

藉口总是拉远了距离

不知不觉无声无息

我们总是在抱怨事与愿违

却不愿意回头看看自己

想想自己到底做了甚黱蠢事情

也许是上帝给我一个试炼

只是这伤口需要花点时间

只是会想念过去的一切

那些人事物会离我远去

而我们终究也会远离

变成回忆

oh 思念是一种病

oh 思念是一种病一种病

多久没有说我爱你

多久没有拥抱你所爱的人

当这个世界不在那黱美好

只有爱可以让他更好

我相信一切都来得及

别管那些纷纷扰扰

别让不开心的事停下了脚步

就怕你不说就怕你不做

别让遗憾继续一切都来得及

It's a day to remember? haha..

2007-08-29T12:45:00.000-07:00

Finally buck up my courage to tell my "heart problem" (xim peir) to my bro le..
But din noe make u so pressured n stress??
Hmm.. Hope u really don't have anytin u put on ur heart din say out bah..
Anw, frankly speaking, really treasure the 5 of our brotherhood..
More than anything? At the moment bah.. =x
But really felt sorry if u feel stress and pressured.. Haiz..

Today still considering whether to take up caleb's job.. But sales line is not really wad i preferred..
Quotas and targets.. Pressure sia.. haha..
But good thing is got to work wif bro^^..
So still considering la..
But i thk got to be quick le.. If not very hard to get jobs..
Haiz.. Also dunno how to ask for leave if i got the job..
Cant work on 13th, 14th & 15th sept..
Den plus 6th, 7th, 8th & 9th oct..
12th, 13th & 14th oct also..
Doubt if any company would actually hire some worker lyk me.. haha..
So.. There goes my admin job! =(
Too bad..
Tired le.. got to go prepare for bed..
Slacking at home tml again.. haha..
Mornings! =x

Lacking behind..

2007-08-27T16:28:00.000-07:00

Is it different from the past??
Or was it the same as before?
I don't know which is my preference.

My confidence come and fades away.

Each time, doubting myself whether Im the one?

It's not like I doesn't want to contact you,

I was afraid you might get bored talking to me.

Where exactly can I get my confidence?

When can I be so sure of myself?

That Im the one you need..

Haiz.. Wasted a few days, AGAIN!

Cuz havn't go to the agency to look for job..

Guess I'll get things started by today? It ain't easy..

gtg.. take care peeps..

i'm sorry.. it came so late.

2007-08-24T17:52:00.000-07:00

It's not how i wanted it to be..

Letting you cogitating wild lyk this..
Obscuring your life so much, it hurts to see..
Visualising the happiness we should have had been..
Enigmatical it may seem..

Yanking back from cerebration..
Obtaining the explaination to my satisfaction..
Unveiling the truth from me to you,

and that is I-L-O-V-E-Y-O-U..

postings.

2007-08-23T20:33:00.000-07:00

Nowadays either too lazy, or im too busy to post..
Finally, my examinations are over. Can have a peace of mind now.
Holidays!! ^^ Thinking of looking for a job. Quite difficult though.
And im not too sure myself what kind of job im looking for either.
Admin jobs? heh.. Never try before, maybe should give it a try?
But i heard from my frens saying his admin job needs a resume, then have to wear formal for the interview. omg.
Formal isn't a problem. The real prob is the resume part!
I don't even know what to write in my resume. haha..
Perhaps should approach my frens to get the idea of how to do up one..
Since all of us might need one. Might as well learn to do one now.
Ytd went to work at Swiss Club, $7/hr. Felt quite nice working there though.
But too bad, they doesn't have functions everyday. Haiz..
I thought I can get to work today too. But last minute cancelled! =(
Hey!! i did this and thought the result was quite well.. lol..

Alright! Lets review my examination process. This time, im particularly stress. I dunno why. Maybe it's bcuz everyone around me seem lyk so hardworkingly studying. I can't help but to feel the sudden urge to ask myself, "wad am i doing?".
The ppl in polytechnic, they are truly the "mugger" type. The times that I can get good grades without really studying is over. Cuz they know their directions, which way to mug in order to get to the top. I know Im not the poorest, but i just cant stand it, finding myself in the middle of the rank, nethier good nor bad. This will get me nowhere.
Due to the immense stress and pressure, i resorted to the usual "de-stress" style, looking up for my bros and frens to go out with them. However, i found that i couldn't find any of them, when i need them most. Why do i not study when i should?
Cuz i know i couldn't take it no more. im at my limit. Loneliness started engulfing me. It's so dark, im so afraid im truly alone. Up until now, it's not over yet. Maybe this is life? Maybe each and everyone of u has went through this already? But frankly, if this is life, i'd rather not live.
During this examination period, i found myself losing directions, directions leading my life to things which i feel one must succeed in. I've lost it, and i've lost it all. Walking down this period of my life, aimlessly alone, feeling only incompetence, things couldn't get any worst than this.

I hope I can adapt to my school environment asap. The change was too great for me to overcome, adopt, and adapt. And im trying to tell myself, im not alone, im not alone.. I hope this shit will be over soon..

Forgotten

2007-08-18T07:16:00.000-07:00

Forget my presence guys..

Examsss!! =(

2007-08-18T06:42:00.000-07:00

Nowadays having examinations..
So stress.. haiz..
Today just finish my second paper, and i mean FINISH..!
My management is done for..
Haiz.. So sad la.. Might fail this module..
Cuz this examination is 50% overall..
omg..
I thk I alrdy loss 50 marks from the paper itself today...
Dont even noe wad myself is talking about..
But the paper isn't that hard..!
Just that I cant memorise all the stuff..
Sianz.. If fail den have to re-take this module again..
Den I will not be the main-stream student anymore..
No more priviledge to choose my own time-table and stuff..
Was actually thking to re-take the whole sem.. lol..
But I dont thk its quite possible la..
So no choice.. Just move on and wish for the better next sem..
First time feeling so stressed up..
Felt much more stress than my 'O's last year..!
Mayb cuz the surrounding people??
Makes me feel so incompetent..
So insignificant.. Haiz..

One thing for me to feel relieve about should b holidays r near?
I guess so..
But I dont thk I will feel any much happier either..
Cuz cant even find ppl out now..
Holidays wont b as stressful i hope??
After the holidays, shall fight war again..
I have my target..
I shall develop commitment to it..
And strive for it..
We shall see..

Damn happy.. XD

2007-08-11T12:47:00.000-07:00

Wow.. Quite long nv update my blog le..
Haha.. Cuz nowadays free jiu watch anime..
Jialat liao la.. dunno when den can start studying..
Haiz..
But i told myself shall start next monday no matter wad..
Cuz the exam is on next friday..
Starting at four days before the exams.. Dunno if i can really make it??
Hmm..
My target, 3.5 gpa for this first sem in poly.. At least..
I thk four days should b enough if i focus solely on studying..?
Haiz.. Sianz la!!
First two exam is on very theory based!! Blaw and Bmgt..
Haiz.. Got tonnes to study.. Den after tat is Macroecons.. My favourite!! =]
But wif those two before it... I guess my "morale" should be quite low upon reaching the third paper..

Last week and this week got to work.. So not tat "tight" anymore.. haha..
OH YA! Watched the movie "Secret"! Damn nice laaaa!!!
Waseh.. Touching.. =]
But i din cry though.. Just felt tat it was fantastic.. haha..
So happy after watching it.. guess watching movie is becoming one of my favourite past time!! XD
Ex though.. But who cares.. Haha..
So envy Jay Chou la..
He played his piano reaaal well.. lol..
Shall work hard on my guitar too! =P
Its 4am in the morning now.. Nowadays just slp at 5am.. Dunno y.. Guess i use to it liao.. haha..

Hmm.. Something kinda unexpected happened today!! XD
It was too wonderful.. i tot it must have been a dream..
If its a dream.. I hope i'll never wake up in my slumber..
If its the reality, i'd kindly oblige..

I've set my eyes on you, for its time to start anew.. ^^

my leg...T-T

2007-08-04T11:51:00.000-07:00

WAHHH!!!..
Haha.. So happy today..
Cuz work wif our own ppl! =D
Den can get money somemore..
To "celebrate" pam's birthday, they drop her down the BABY POOL..
LOL..! Cuz shes got her hp wif her la.. haha..
Anw, her birthday was ytd.. =)
Den after tat she got wet, AND GOT MAD..! lol..
Go around making ppl wet lor! walao..
Was one of her VICTIMS..!!
So bo bian, my reflex was to pour her bac..
Haha.. B4 tat she alrdy abit siao siao liao..
Even took one bottle of water, chasing after me trying to make me wet la..
Crazy.. Den I ran into a place so dark, I cant even see the steps..
With a jump, I landed with the side of my right leg..
Damn la..
Everytime tio my feet wan lor..
This time is damn pain.. Damn painful..
Haha.. Now swollen liao.. Hope it has got nothing to do with my bones.. =X
Cant blame her though..
If I hadnt k kiang go jump, this might not have happened..
Stupid la..
I thk some day, my feet will soon be "out of service" lor..
Haiz.. Dont feel lyk going tml..
To my fren's company in tpy..
Den plus my leg lyk tat..
But cannot la.. Lata he thk I k siao k siao try and make up excuses..
Haha..
Plus I promise him liao.. So die die also muz go..
Haiz.. Hope my leg will recover b4 National Day!! lol..
Den can go wif long and leb to the party at sentosa...!
Haha.. Looking forward to it la..
Party at sentosa! =D
I hope.. I hope..

LAZY!

2007-08-02T07:08:00.000-07:00

PS!!! Haha..
Nowadays either is too busy or too lazy to post..
haha..
Cuz nowadays Im on ANIME SPHREE!! lol..
Crazy watching One Piece..
Nice sia.. Cant stop watching liao..
Got three hundred over episodes la.. Now oli half way nia..
lol.. Addicted liao la..
And I can annonce tat Im totally B-R-O-K-E liao lor..
Sianz la..

Today in scool..
The poa tutor damn sacarstic..
Haha.. But I couldnt defend myself oso la..
Its my fault anw..
She just announce to everybody about the participation percentage for the module..
And she said usually everyone in her module will pass the 10% weightage..
But tis sem quite exceptional..
GOT ONE FAILURE..
And u're right.. TATs ME..!
Damn la..
Its not lyk I din "participate" during class..
Its just tat I din noe tat late will actually get myparticipation marks deducted..
AHHH..
Wadever la..
Just let her deduct..
At most oso lose 10% nia..
Now just have to focus and study for the Exam and score REAL well..

Haiz.. Sianz la..
At first still got the momentum for the "motivation" to strive in this course de lor..
But tis kinda crap came up..
Wads done cant be undone anw.. so just let it be la..
Den pray hard tat I'll change during the next sem! haha..
Alrite! Shall stop here!..
Off to watch One Piece.....

Florence's Birthday!

2007-07-26T22:19:00.000-07:00

Finally man! Today got to meet up wif everyone..! lol..
Cuz its florence's b'day!
Din went to scool for today.. haha..
Cuz dont feel lyk going la..
But still ended up late when meeting them! =P
This stupid habbit..
Dunno how to change la..
haha.. But lucky still got ppl later dan me!
Birthday gal oso later dan me.. lol..
Suppose to meet up at 7.30pm, but i reach there at 8.20pm..
LOL..!
All right..
Den we spent the night at K Garden!
Sing Sing Sing.. haha..
But today's quite different though..
The feeling.. The atmosphere.. haha..
Should b cuz almost everyone there..
So it was exceptionally happy..
haha.. Crazy la..
Den a bastard wanna make me drunk.. LOL!
But cant blame him la..
If i dont wanna drink, no body can make me drink either..
So is my fault..! Haha..
Anw.. Drank quite alot..
But im not drunk lei.. I can still thk properly.. Walk straightly and all..
Just tat my face red red nia.. lol..
And i was crazier dan b4 nia lo..
But frankly, at first i tot after drinking, i would not b able to sing well..
On the contraay, I could sing better dan b4 in tat condition..! lol..
At least tats how i feel..
haha..
Happy Birthday Mei! finally 18..! haha..
Sang u the Birthday cum Beat-Box song.. U BETTER DON DELETE..!
lol.. Alrite alrite.. More and more ppl's b'dae nearing..
Pam's, den hao's.. haha..
I suppose pam's would b fun?? =D
Boon will do a gr8 job i thk.. lol..

Once again! Happy Birthday Florence! haha..
Hope u enjoyed ur day..
Its not very eventful tat day.. But manage to call forth quite a few ppl.. haha..
U take care!
Hope to see all of u soon...
Ciao!

=)

2007-07-24T11:40:00.000-07:00

Finally!!
New post from me.. =P
This few days too busy..
Couldnt have time to update..
Haha..
Nthing special anw..
OH!
Good news today!
My appeal for waiver of debarment was approved! =D
Hmm..
Which means I am not being debarred for POA anymore!
Haha!!
But I've actually wasted the one and only chance for waiver of debarment..
Arghhh!!!
I even promise not to b late or absent or wadsoever anymore..!
U thk I can achieve tat?? HAH..!
I hope I will be able to honor my words..
Anw, mei's B'day coming soon!! Haha..
Actually quite looking forward to it man..
Cuz can get everyone tgt once again.. XD
But y must it be in the time when so many of us are B-R-O-K-E!!!!!
Sian lor.. My savings left wif not more than $100 liao..
Jialat la..
How to ton till my 2-months vacation?!
Haiz..
Problems just keep coming..
One after another..
But its ok..
Cuz I'm free from debarment!! XD
Examinations coming reallll soon..
Must start studying le..
But still wont forget to PLAY!
Haha..

Actually today quite happy..
Cuz finally got to coach my brother maths..
He has been asking for my help for weeks..
I cant believe tat I couldnt even have time to guide him..
Finally got the chance today..! Haha..
So happy la..
But din show out..
Y am I happy?
Cuz he finally noes, Ah Beng wifout education can get him nowher..!
I dont hope for him to pull himself out from the dark side..
I just hope he can be the smartest one inside.. =)

Ahhh... TIRED..
lol..

Shall go to bed now! Aliyoz..
Nites! =]

9am again!

2007-07-19T10:41:00.000-07:00

OMG..! Nowadays keep on having to wake up at 0630!
Cuz have to reach scool at 0900..
Anw.. Today still went for my POA..
At first still hope if today can reach there earlier,
mayb I can "mitigate" for my debarment..
I even made the effort to get out of my house 15 minutes EARLIER..
Den u noe wad?
I got there the same time as usual! 25minutes late..
OMG!!!
Why? God knows..
Damn.. Its true know..
Just when I made the effort..
It rained so heavily, I can't even keep myself from getting drenched inside the bus!
Horrible..
And the rain got me 25 minutes late for tutorial and confirmation of getting debarred..
Who can I blame?
Myself? For not watching the news on weather forecast the day before?
Damn it ALL!..
I felt lyk I was being "played"..
By God?
lol..
It can't be helped..
Too many unpredictables in Life..
I guess..

...

2007-07-17T11:24:00.000-07:00

As i said..
Nothingness truely came back and haunt me after our "Lan-Session"!
lol..
Somehow feeling empty..
Lyk always, procrastinating to do my part of the project on Biz Management..!
Luckily i won the battle against procrastination.. haha..
Just finish doing my part of the project..
And its now 0230..
Awww... Have to wake up at 0630!
So gtg slp now! Haha..

Anw, today's presentation got "B-"..
Fortunately, i din get a "C" or below..
Lets hope i wont get it, at least for tis sem..
Hoping.. =)
Nites!

Lan Lan Day! =X

2007-07-16T10:59:00.000-07:00

Haiz! Today so sianz..
Got to do project on my own..!
Haha.. but still, my group-mates tey have done their part la..
luckily can finish it on time!
=]
Den after tat went to amk avenue 10 mac..
Mei's blk ther..
lol.. Go "study"..
But din really manage to really study la..
Thk today sway bah! Lan Lan nia! Haiz..
Who told me to b guai gia.. lol..
Hope my choice of being guai gia is rite!
It affects my future afterall..
Earning big bucks..
But not oli guai gia can earn big bucks rite?
lol.. Juz felt so Lan Lan la!..
Long time din felt lyk tat before..
hmm..
Felt the weakness inside me..
Shall join some cca which can learn to protect myself and my beloved!
I shall see.. =X
Kick-boxing?
hmm..
Martial-Arts?
mayb.. lol..
Just a tot in mind..
Mayb still too lazy to even join all these..
Luckily can look forward to tml!
Ending scool early..
So can go find CK and Boon go lan again..
But soon, it'll past..
Den again, I will have nth to look forward to..
Nthingness will come back and conquer my soul!

Hah..!

2007-07-15T10:01:00.000-07:00

Damn bored ar!!!!!!
Haiz..
Die liao la.. Think I getting depression..
feeling down, for no particular reason..
haiz..
Mayb cuz its just cuz im too bored..
Boredom seriously KILLS..!
Still have BLAW project not done yet!
Due tis tuesday..
Haiz..
So sian la.. Dont wan tis lifestyle now lei..
Lyk very messy lyk tat..
Nthing good..
Shall i start all over again wasting half-a-year??
I dont really feel tis is the right way..
But i noe tis is the oli way which i can start afresh.. Isnt?
So.. Getting a "C" and below for any of my grades and i shall repeat, or change course of study..
But tis course have bright prospect..
And i still doesnt noe if i'll be interested in it...
Haiz..
Just "zou yi bu kan yi bu" bah..

Im truly stupid.. Fell for it again..
Told myself not to.. Hurt though..
But i could still control myself..
It isnt wad i thk it was.. It isnt wad i thk it was.. It isnt wad i thk it was..
It isnt.. =X
Alrite.. Have to carry on with life too..
Carry on den.....

Satisfying day? =]

2007-07-14T12:26:00.000-07:00

Morning woke up early..
Went to work for yz's dad..
Haha..
Those carpet DAMN heavy la..
Almost 600-700kg EACH!
U din see wrong.. Its E-A-C-H!!
Hah!
Cant imagine rite??
Suddenly found out how small size I was when I saw those carpet..
lol..
The person in-charge dunno how to plan tins la..
Keep pushing the blame onto "MISCOMMUNICATION"..
Din even show initiative in the whole process!
Oli keep saying his superior told him tis, told him tat..
Cant even make such simple decisions by himself at all..!
Not flexible.. At a glance can alrdy tell there was no space for the FIVE rolls of huge carpet lor..
Still keep insisted for us to stuff it into the "holes"..
BLOODY HELL LA!
Den hurt my toe again..
U're RITE! The same one..
The trolley carrying the 600-700kg carpet rolled up my toe.. T.T
Felt the pain for awhile.. Haha..
Den after tat no need mention le la..
Tonight quite happy.. lol..
Cuz got to watch two movies..
Quite nice though!
The Hitcher and My Wife Is A Gangster 3!!
Haha.. Watch it wif mei and Miang..
Den after tat went to YZ's hse stay overnite.. Haha..
Tired!! Shall go to bed!
Alrite.. Shall stop here.. =)

wad am i to do??

2007-07-13T09:52:00.000-07:00

From starting of poly,
I told myself, I must aim for gpa as close to 4 as possible..
But now i dont thk i can achieve it..
Have to seriously find out whether will have to re-take for half year more anot..
If have to, I might as well go change course..!
Hmm..
Den start all over again!..
Dunno how it goes tis time..
Hope it'll be fine..
Haiz.. Sian la.. Today in the end really din manage to meet up wif CK they all..
Went home after my MAEC test!
Buang again..
haiz..
Getting more and more disappointed in myself..
Is there no one who I can hang on to??
I dont thk i can find anyone..
not even a soul..
No one would understand me though..
It's lyk all things went crumbling down one after another..
How long can I face all tis..?
Life's definitely changing for me..
And it's gradually getting harsher..
I am so SPASTIC!!!

NO MOOD!

2007-07-12T09:38:00.000-07:00

Haiz.. Finally got DEBARRED!
So sad la.. But can oli blame myself..!
FAN AR!!! Why lyk tis..??
Juz when I tot it's time I should buck up..
Juz when I start to do my work..
Juz when I tot I could hang on..
My stupid habbit of getting late has now got me into trouble..
Though I can take the module again next sem..
It will definitely pull down my grade for tis sem!!
Cuz tat was my best grade..
I got myself into it..
Can oli blame myself..
AR!! Tml got test!! How to find mood to study lyk tis??
Got to rush my Microsoft Excel somemore!!
Tot tml can go out wif CK tey all to lan..
But got test! WTH LA!
haiz..
Damn depress now.. Feel lyk no one can help me..
So.. In the end still have to waste half a year eh?
haiz..
WAD AM I DOING?!!
I dunno..
I oli noe i cant slp tonight again!
SHIT! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it's down-turn for me..! =( bad luck..

2007-07-10T19:23:00.000-07:00

Damn sian la!
Nowadays dunno y so sway sia!
Today eat wrong tins.. Den stomach damn pain la..
Cant "ren" anymore, so went to the toilet at AMK Hub..
Den after tat the pain got more excruciating!
Damn la.. Vomitted.. Dunno wad "substance" I vomit out lor..
Should be my gestric juice inside the stomach..
Cuz it taste sour..

Den reach home.. Went to shit again..
It's not even shit lor! It's simply LIQUID..
"EEEEeeee" rite? Walao..
I feel lyk vomitting even a the tot of it lor..
Just damn pain la my stomach..

Den went to bed.. Slp awhile..
Lucky after tat got better, so went out to find mei tey all! =]
Go "study".. lol..
At 11pm den eat mac for supper.. den at the counter den found out I got oli $4.90 when the meal cost me $5.00! Haha.. SO malu.. Went bac to get 10cent from them..
Jialat liao.. Really broke!
So sian la.. In the end din manage to even start to do my presentation!
Cuz at first tot no internet connection in the mac..
Den after tat went home..
Waited for last bus.. Luckily still got.. If not I must really walk home..
Bros! Better save up more now cuz I might get back my money from u all..!
Paiseh to tell u all face to face.. =)
Hope u all dont mind la.. Its my last resort.. Hope u all understand..
=] thanks!

*Yup! Working hard! Tell u wad.. Quit ur scool den focus on ur 'O's if u feel scooling is affecting u from getting better results k?? But if u do so must really work hard on ur 'O's liao la.. =) Jiayou! Work hard too yea? Can really come to look for me if u need help.. I'll try and be lyk in the past! =] take care..*

OUCH!

2007-07-09T11:37:00.000-07:00

Damn! Haha.. Had fun today..
Y?? Mayb cuz the ppl i met? LOL!
So happy la.. Finally 5 of us met together again! =D
Though for short short while nia.. haha..
But really very rare la..
For 5 ppl to be free on the same day! =]
HAIZ..! After talking wif CK and Boon abt the past during secondary scool life, suddenly really miss the time we have had!
Those were the happy moments in Life..
Every moment, building on the bonds and memories we share!
Haha.. We might not be able to remember each and every part of it..
But keep in mind! There are 5 of us! So each one of us will have to "memorise" 1/5 of all that we have! =D
Yup! Its tis feeling I needed, I longed for.. =)
Looking forward for another "gathering" of ours! XD
Thanks.. Each and every bros.. U rock my Life! lol..

*Hmmm.. To the once special someone of mine!
U might have lost many tins..
And u might not be able to get it back,
So u should learn to cherish wad u have now.. yea? =)
Take gd care of urself! We will be there for YOU!*

frustrating!

2007-07-08T10:31:00.000-07:00

Haiz! Today damn frustrating la! Damn sway..
My toe lyk tat nvm, i broke a glass at home, den kena cut on the same injured leg!!
Blood gush out lyk dunno wad.. Even though the cut not big!
ARGH!! Den my mom kept niaming..
Cant stand it.. I noe I have to be filial..
But sometimes really not under my control la!

Cuz she kept niam den somemore go switch off my laptop de switch!
Den my whole laptop just went blank.. Bloody hell..
Misfortune came one after another.. Lucky at tat time i havnt start doing my hmwk!
If not I sure go crazy..

Alrdy shouted at her lyk hell when she just switch off the power inadvertently..
After tat got real guilty.. Haha..
Bad rite? Haiz.. Nowadays keep bad temper lor.. dunno y la..

Somemore.. Got a feeling lyk we've drifted more and more apart! All of us..
But tat's Life, I guess?
Couldnt even last a year eh?
Hah! Quite sad though..
It cant be helped!!

SENTOSA!! late till very jialat!! =P

2007-07-08T01:55:00.000-07:00

Wahlao!! Today suppose to wake up early and go to sentosa de lor!!
Even told myself better not to be late today!
HAIZ.. I AM LATE.. Damn late la.. =P

At first still pondering on whether to go or not lor..
Den I see the weather quite good, so decided to go!
Haha.. By the time i reach, Angeline alrdy left liao..

All becuz of ytd night la!! The stupid tutor!
Wan me hand in my assignment by today morning..
So no choice, have to stay up late to finish it..
Lucky i was able to finish lor.. If not i late for nth! Haha..

At sentosa, played monkey ther as usual..
Got go down the sea la.. Haha.. Even tried to swim across!
But half-way nia den heard the life-guard blow his whistle.. Den tot gtg back..!
After tat den found out he not blowing me! Wasted lor! Can swim ther de..
Haha.. But really no stamina liao.. Swim lyk tat nia den cant catch my breath..
WEAK! lol..

After tat went to kelvinT's hse.. His chiwawa damn irritating lar! Haha..
Kept barking! Majiam I rape her mother lyk tat.. lol..
Even though so small in size, i see liao oso scared scared lor! haha..

Den got bite by the damn dog on my nose.. Her saliva DAMN SMELLY LAH!!
Luckily i siam fast.. If not my nose gone.. Haha..

Stayed over-night at kairong's hse in sengkang! Haha.. Quite fun though..
BUT injured my toe.. Haha.. Actually alrdy got injured once earlier today when we at sentosa by Boon..
Den after tat next morning, got injured by Pam again..
Dunno isit i owe this two "siblings" de la! Haha.. Quite pain though..

Die la.. Scared i cant wear shoe on next thursday! Cuz my toe swollen..
Haiz.. Hope will recover in time..!

=]

2007-07-05T11:03:00.000-07:00

WASEH! SooooOOO proud of myself sia!.. LOL!
Finally complete my scool de blog liao.. Damn shuang la..! =]
Now is like so late liao lor.. TIRED!! haiz..

So happy la.. Tml friday le.. haha..
Somemore can look forward to next thursday! MUSICAL NIGHT! haha..
Den will be mei's BIRTHDAY!! 26th July.. Everyone dont k siao dunno ar!!
Muz save money from today onwards! Just for her present.. LOL!

So fast another week pass liao..
Hope can faster holiday lor!
8 WEEKS LEI!! walao.. Haha..
Haiz.. Life's missing something now.. Haha..
But, Ke Yu Bu Ke Qiu la! =P

OMG!

2007-07-04T11:21:00.000-07:00

Today still thought of completing my FOUR blog entries for my scool work lor! Haiz.. manage to do two nia.. saded la..! Friday still have to print out somemore.. Which means I left with one more day to complete another two entries! Haiz.. Bobian la.. Who ask me dont do during the last ELEVEN weeks.. haiz.. Now den suffer..
Haha.. But quite "wu hua" in a sense la.. Cuz i spent my ELEVEN weeks wifout doing any homework! haha.. den last minute den chiong.. LOL! =P

Hey! Just wanna tell u, I really ok le! =] Really joking nia.. Hope u dont misunderstand! Haha.. Starting to focus more on my studies nowadays..
So long din get the sense of "achievement" after completing homeworks lor!
Must somehow get it.. Den will have motivation to do more.. haha..

Die liao la.. Tml one whole day at scool lor.. Until 9pm, or even later.. haiz!
Hope can get to noe new frens during the cca! =)
Oh! Got back my result for MAEC today! 18/20.. A+! haha.. quite okok le bah?

=] Time for bed! Nites!

2007-07-03T09:46:00.000-07:00

Haha.. Today finished scool at 11am! Suprisingly early sia! =]
Got back my BLAW grades too.. 76/100, B+!
Haiz.. 4 more marks nia den "A" liao.. Wasted! Sian la..

Finish scool liao went to find Boon to go play lan.. Haha.. Not very satisfying though.. But nvm! Cuz he got heart to come out play wif me! =)

After tat went kpool find CK.. Today dunno isit got possessed lor.. Billard damn tyco! Haha.. But pool abit goyak la.. lol..

Den after tat went to CK's steamboat ther eat eat.. Den went off wif Jiahao liao..

I did nthing much today oso lor.. Go funland awhile den went back home.. Finally saw ID4 loh! Haha..

Reach home le straight away slp liao.. Cuz damn tired la.. HAIZ..
lyk wasted my day again lor.. Cuz still got tonnes of homework havnt complete yet! Due tis friday lei.. Nobody can help me wif my work =(

I thk the bus keep advertising de "Globl Warming" quite true sia.. Cuz even though now at night, Im still sweating all over! Damn.. Sianz la..! Tml end early again lor.. Hope can find something to do..!

Sorry,

2007-07-02T17:03:00.000-07:00

I've tot about it again last night..
I'm at fault..
Sorry..
I thk I really "wan bu qi"..
Or I guess tat's a tin I treat very seriously..
Tat's y i cant "play wif it"..
Sorry for venting at u ytd..
Nowadays, or rather, all along, I have bad temper..
I guess u're clearer than anyone else.
Sorry!
But I really din tot tat u'd treat frenships so lightly..
I've lost enough these days..
It shall end wif u as my last tin to be lost..
I hope...

Since you suggested it? Y not?

2007-07-02T08:15:00.000-07:00

Wow.. I guess today was the first scool day in my poly life to have enough slp! Haha..
So good lor.. Went to scool can thk soOO much clearer! =]
Started scool at 1200 today.. Ended around 3 plus.. Done with my project at 1730..
Reach home around 9pm! WOW rite? lol.. Muz be thking y the big gap? =x

So damn bloody sian la! I miss my stop! As usual.. Den cross the road to take bus back.. BUT.. MISS MY STOP AGAIN..! ARRGH!!

Stupid rite? Haha.. The bloody Phua Chu Kang la! Attracted me to watch it.. Den forgot to alight.. HAIZ..

Haha.. Damn silly la.. Let deik noe confirm say I "bai chi" again..

Alrite! Left with one "mei" now.. Since u suggested it.. Why not?!
I'm sick and tired of u anyway.. Ur stupid way of doing things.. U think it's funny to get to noe ppl's privacy in this manner? IT ISN'T! And it's irritating, alrite!
I'm telling u.. I hate ppl who doesnt admit their mistakes, ppl who die oso wan face, ppl who doesnt repent on why others thk of themselves tat way! And u have all of the "QUALITIES" above I mentioned...! I tried to be nice to u.. Dont deny it! Hoping u would change for the better.. But u didnt!
Wanna noe y I treated u tat way? Its cuz u dont deserve to be treated nicely! U'd take advantage of it.. And thk tat u're right every single time! I noe wad u're thking rite now.. "U OSO THK TAT U'RE RIGHT NOW!" See? If u're having this kind of mindset.. U're simply telling me U feel tat u're right.. I guess u wont get wad I mean either..
I told myself before! No matter wad, I should not mention breaking of "kinship" with u.. U're thking, "LYK REAL!" Am I right? I hope Im not.. But since U have suggested it urself, why not?! Im sick and tired of ur character anyway..
"U go ur way, i go mine!" From start, I already took different path as U! Alrite den.. No more space for negotiation now! Tat's it! Good luck with ur character!

kBox!

2007-07-01T10:42:00.000-07:00

Haha.. Went kbox today for our "mini_gathering"!
Abit weird la.. Cuz at first tot Angeline wont dare to sing.. But she did! Haha..
First time hearing her sing.. Still ok wad! Why shy sia?? lol..

Everyone can sing, just tat they dare to sing out anot nia..
Just be more thick-skinned lyk me! Den sure dare to sing out LOUD liao..
LOL!

Sang for six hours lor! About $23 lyk tat.. Cuz GST raise till 7% starting TODAY.
Haha.. How LUCKY!

Today okok la.. Still an acceptable day.. =]
Din have much expectation to really "have fun" today when I first came out from my house.. Haha.. Cuz u noe y!

But now feeling better le.. Not tat EMO anymore.. Thanks to tat msg! =]
But, haiz.. Thking having to go scool again for the next 5 days make me SIAN!!
Y ppl have youth day holiday we dont have?? Damn.. We still youth lor!
Haha.. Adult is 21 years and above lor..

Haiz.. Holidays were never enough for me..! Dunno lei..
Abit contradicting myself now.. Feel lyk studying hard.. But dont feel lyk going to scool lor! Dunno y la..!

But shouldnt be a problem.. Haha.. Shall stop here! To be continued...TML! =P

Disappointment

2007-06-30T21:44:00.000-07:00

Im here to blog again.. Though late for my "mini-gathering"!
But suddenly feeling disappointed.. friends..

My most important tin in Life is friend.. I guess most of the ppl out there noes..
But it just seem lyk the bonds we built in those two/five years were gone.. So easily?..

Though I said "mini", I din mean it to be so "mini" until oli 4 of us, including me to "gather"..
It just take 1 day of u ppl.. To maintain the frenship for, mayb years?? Difficult?
Yes, there may be other chances to go out.. But if ur mindset is lyk tis, den u wont even go once.. cuz u'll be thking, "aiya, will have next outing wan mar.. dont go tis wan nvm."

FIVE years, we've built up lots and lots of memories..

I thought my secondary scool frens would be my frens for Life..
But it seem I've put too much expectation in it..

Most disappointed in myself. For I've committed the same mistake twice! This time, for investing too much on frenships..! I mean, yes, ppl have different priorities first, I just hate myself for putting frens first..

Disappointments again and again..
From all these experiences, I learned tat nothing will last forever..
Not love, not frenships.. Brotherhood?? Perhaps?

I've lost enough.. Love, and now maybe frens..
I dunno how much longer I can stand and face the "obstacles" in life..
Cuz the tins tat topple off were the most important tins in my life..
Helpless...! WE HAVE SCATTERED.. WE HAVE SCATTERED FAR..!

Transformer!

2007-06-30T13:30:00.000-07:00

Woooot! =]
At first thought today will be just another boring day! But Transformers TRANSFORMED my day sia..
LOL..!
So happy lor.. Satisfying day.. Haha..
At first thought going out so late den going home by cab abit sianz...
Luckily Transformers nice movie! lol..
So damn nice la.. The graphics and all, even the story plot is nice, one word, WONDERFUL!
Haha.. So long din watch such nice movie liao... So very satisfied today..!
At first abit sian la.. Cuz tml de tins.. Haiz.. Ask ppl out but they treat our "outing" lyk their second choice!
Sad la.. Its not one or two of them.. Its sooo many of them lor! Haiz..

Or isit i got no "power"?? So ask them they dont thk important?? Damn sian la..
Haiz.. EXCUSES!! Sianz..
Tml dunno fun anot lor.. At first still quite looking forward to it.. But now....
Dunno la..

Tml oso dunno gonna go kbox or watch movie again..! Haha.. Personally, dont feel lyk watching la..!
Cuz today juz watch nia.. =X

Feel lyk SINGING! Haha.. But mei lyk sang for once this week liao.. Next week gonna go two more times sia!
Power..! LOL! Dunno how she gonna "survive".
Heard she broke liao lor.. *Pian mama de qian rite?* lol..

I oso no better lar.. Gonna buay tong liao! Haha..
But dont really care la.. Chuan Dao Qiao Tou Zi Ran Zhi! =]
Maybe go *pian mama de qian* oso after Im broke! Haha.. XD

Alrite, shall go to bed now.. Slping in YZ's house today! Gonna wake up at 10am tml.. If not late AGAIN! lol..
Stop here le. NITES!

Nothingness

2007-06-29T07:50:00.000-07:00

Waseh.. Today is SUPER sian..!
Den bloody hot oso lor.. Keep on sweating! Even at night..
Damn..
Hope tml will not be lyk today.. stay at home one whole day sia...
Haiz.. Sianz!!

好心做坏事！=(

2007-06-28T11:28:00.000-07:00

Today 1pm finish scool le..
Got back my POA result too.. 93/100!
Good? Haha.. I doubt so..
Cuz I did POA before le.. So supposingly I should top this module..
But its ok.. Satisfied wif it..! =]

After finishing scool, went home straight..
At first thought dont wanna go out le.. Just stay at home for the rest of the day..
But CK called and somehow "asked" me to go out..! Haha..
Actually is Sam ask me to jio him out no matter wad.. Cuz today is their 6months anniversary! So she gonna gif him a suprise.. Haha.. So sweet rite?

Gonna find a galfren lyk his lor.. Haha..
He so damn fortunate la! Hao Xie Mu Ar!!!
lol..

Actually can quite early go back de.. But heard from Aaron they all, ALOT
malays came to AMK central.. Very "dangerous" to go at that moment..
Quite serious though.. Alrdy 4 ppl from AMK got hacked by them liao..!
So go down AMK central muz take extra care!

Den after that went to Boon's house to play majong..! Haha..
At first so happy sia!! Thought I won a 5 folds at second round lor!
But actually I "xiao xiang gong"!! tmd.. Got to pay them so more..
But luckily in the end oli lose 90 cents nia.. Boon poor tin lar..
Lost $7.90 LOR!

Haiz.. After our majong session, we went home..
Den when i reaching home, I recalled I put my drink on his computer desk..
I scared will attract ants.. So quickly sent a msg to him.. Thought lyk that wont make life difficult for him.. But in the end, I SENT THE MSG TO HIS HOME NUMBER...!!!!
GOD noes y.. Damn! Den he got scolded by his Dad lor.. So damn guilty lar..
Sorry Boon.. Felt lyk I made ur life much more difficult instead..!
Really sorry bro... =(

Haiz.. Really is 好心做坏事 lor.. Damn.. Stupid me.. Sianz..!

I pray..

2007-06-27T07:36:00.000-07:00

Overslpt today..
So din manage to go scool for morning lesson..
Din manage to see my grade for MAEC too..
But heard from frens, all passes.. Highest score was 19/20..!
Haiz.. I'm not one of them.. A little disappointed!
Today finally got my hair cut.. So ugly lor.. REGRETED cutting there sia..
Should have tried JeanYip instead..! Haha..
But broke liao.. So dropped the idea..

So sian today! Arghhhhhhh!
I think tml should be the same..
Such a pity lor.. 1pm finish scool lei..
Maybe try to find ppl to go out tml..

Hmm.. Shall skip my guitar lesson tml too..
So sad lor.. 11th week of scool, and I just went for once!
Haiz.. As usual la.. Today feeling a little down.. Missing her..
Tried not to msg her, and I succeeded..
That's why feeling "not so good" now..

Looking for someone to chat with! But there was none.. No mood for anytin..
Tml getting back POA test results.. Hope it's wad I had expected..!
Den at least I have something to feel good about in myself..
Life so sian!! Nothing to look forward to..
MEANINGLESS AR!!!

Thanks!!

2007-06-26T09:42:00.000-07:00

Boon!! Thanks for accompanying me to go Raiders..
I know you can simply reject when i ask u to go Raiders with me..
But you didnt.. Thanks!
=)
Even being in the penniless condition, you still agreed to go Raiders with me this Thursday! That should be the only thing which comfort me today..

Paiseh hor, BROs CK and Boon, I "burst" during the "pool session" with the both of you..
There's a reason for it..
But I know saying it out will result in restricting my Brother..
I dont wan that to happen!

I wan everyone to feel natural with me..
Not STRESS!

But today really till brim liao.. Cant bottle up the feeling anymore any longer..
But I will try not to vent on u BROs the next time yea?

Long ar.. You also! Haha..
Taking it out on pool is fine..
But make sure you will not affect others k?? =]
Wo Shi Guo Lai Ren, Shuo Yi Wo Zhi Dao! =x
Paiseh!! Cuz cant accompany you and Caleb till late night..
Wanted to.. But no money liao.. If I have I sure accompany the both of you den take cab home.. =]

You BROs are my everything now..! =]
Got anything just gif me a call ya?
I will come down for all of you no matter wad! =P

I FEEL like quiting..!

2007-06-26T09:22:00.000-07:00

Contradicting feelings in me today..!
Felt happy at first cuz can go Raiders with Boon..
But after tat, thking bout having to go scool tml, my mood fell from top of the world!
HAIz!
Dunno why.. Today keep having this thought in mind..
Feel lyk quiting scool.. Feel like slacking everyday doing nothing..
But wad can I do in future if I just quit scool like this??
Having just a 'O' level cert.. I can go nowhere..!

But just dont feel lyk studying now.. Maybe cuz this is not my interest??
I cant see myself having the potential to excel studying this course in future..
I AM CONFUSED..!!

Giving up seem to be an easy choice..
Too tempting..
Or I thk I have no motivation in this course bah..
The motivation to do well..
The feeling isn't there anymore..

But changing course will waste 1 semester!
And I don't know if I can find interest in Engineering..

Wad should I do..??
Shall I just gif up lyk tis??
I'm disappointed in myself!
I got knocked out by just 1 factor of my life..
Wifout her support.. It just feel so meaningless..

Wads love..? I feel so breathless, searching for the answer..
It can truly knock one out...

It's not just a Blog to me.. It's my DIARY! =]

2007-06-25T08:32:00.000-07:00

Yea! haha.. manage to reach scool on time today..
spent half of my day in scool lor! MAEC lecture.. Haiz..
NO LIFE!
den after scool we went to do project.. so ps sia..
i simply did nothing during tat two hours! Cant believe it lor..
Luckily my groupmates all 好人！ Din angry with me.. =]

After tat went home slack whole day sia!
Most boring part of my day liao.. =P
But ok la.. Felt relax at home..!
Haha..

Actually, i treat my blog more lyk a diary la..
So not very worried tat i'll run out of topic to write..!
I can ALA quite a bit oso de lor! lol..

Tml.. HOLIDAY FOR ME!! haha.. Self-Declared one of course..
lol.. Go scool for 1 hour plus nia.. waste time for a useless module.. Might as well dont go sia.. haha..

*Hope my blog din offend u!! =x

Back to Square One. Trapping myself in circle.

2007-06-24T00:27:00.000-07:00

Wow!! Went out with KyiKyi and SweeBoon today..!
Today den found out KyiKyi oso can be quite stubborn at times.. lol..!
太客气了！
Late again la.. So sian lor.. haha..
Lucky Boon din late for too long.. If not ask KyiKyi down there wait for the both of us, SO MALU.. lol!
Met them at Mos-Burger.. After tat went to funland play pool..
The table lyk shit lor.. Haha..
Tey budget bah.. LOL..!
Den went to CK working there de coffee shop eat steamboat..! Walao.. 1 month dunno go there eat how many times sia..
After eating, KyiKyi go home liao lor.. She so 客气！Dont wan us treat.. Haha..
Tml scool re-opening lor! But I still stayed overnight at Boon's house..
Cuz dont wanna waste money take cab home..
I broke ler.. Haha..

Finally, my turn to broke..! =x

So ps lor.. scared boon thk i treat his house lyk hotel..! Haha.. But lucky he didnt.. Thanks BRO! =]

Saw you at SY house there de Mac.. Dunno wad to talk to u oso.. Haha..
But im glad tat u smiled for the whole time! *not lyk me* =P
I guess its lyk my title..? Back to square one..? The period of time u avoided me..
i guess history is repeating itself again bah..
Cant b helped either..
Perhaps, it's my Life.......

take care too..

Shag Lei!

2007-06-23T07:21:00.001-07:00

Wonder men! LOL..!
Din slp for 48 hours, nvm, today still went around AMK and CityHall to take photos of posters! WTH rite??
Haha.. It wasn't EASY lor.. To keep ur eyes open when u don't slp at night! =1

So damn shag sia.. Buay-ta-han lei..
Haha.. So funny also.. Wore the same tin as ytd(i got bathe, no worries!), den walk around at Suntec City tat area.
Den in the end finally reach tat damn Conrad Hotel..! Haha..
Reach liao nvm, yaozhong and i ps to go take the picture of the posters lor!
Cuz got ppl there smoking.. So stupid la..! Den the both of us waited down there lyk idiotS.. LOL..!
Den finally yaozhong "mustered" the courage to go take the photos, in front of the ladies who are smoking! So brave sia.. lol..
Just damn tired lor..
Walked 1 whole day ar..!!!
Waseh.. Really "lao" liao.. 1 night din slp nia, buay-ta-han liao lei..!
Haha..
But ok lar.. Cuz tml we'll be meeting KyiKyi.. Looking forward to tat noe..!

SHAG ARRR!!!... =!

Blog

Life!

Life..?

dusty!

Lonely..

Bitter.

hey hey!

After effects..

Movie!!

troubled..

记得你，记得爱...

Regrets..

Why?

No. 100 post!

New.

wait for you.

me.

For You.

The battle

How should i say?

彩 虹

Night!

mia

Turning Point of my life..?

Brand New Day!

Alone

城外

我想要説

你愿意吗？

Happy Birthdays to all three of you! =)

Shall i say "sweet"?? =/

$$$

A story of a stupid guy! =P

Today!

It's you!

I love to dream.. ^_^

Dream!

All or nothing at all..

At the end of the day..

No point!

Old Sultan House!

BH

No Promises

down

My feelings?? haha..

Dreamt..

My hair!

I love you..

黑色幽默

Its not easy..

思念是一种病

It's a day to remember? haha..

Lacking behind..

i'm sorry.. it came so late.

postings.

Forgotten

Examsss!! =(

Damn happy.. XD

my leg...T-T

LAZY!

Florence's Birthday!

=)

9am again!

...

Lan Lan Day! =X

Hah..!

Satisfying day? =]

wad am i to do??

NO MOOD!

it's down-turn for me..! =( bad luck..

OUCH!

frustrating!

SENTOSA!! *late till very jialat!!* =P

=]

OMG!

Sorry,

Since you suggested it? Y not?

kBox!

Disappointment

Transformer!

彩虹

SENTOSA!! late till very jialat!! =P